It Feels Right

chapter uno

Just a heads up, this was all a dream that I managed to put into words. There are some parts that are t.w., but like I said it was all a dream. None of this is actually true. If it offends some of you, I apologize.

Being the daughter of Tom Izzo, everyone knows who I am. They all pretty much know my whole family. I have a brother in the Army, a sister that is Josh Dun's girlfriend, a brother who plays for the Chicago Bulls, a brother who is on the MSU team, my twin, and baby sister. What they don't know is my back story. It's not a childhood that I would want to relive, yet it haunts me every second of the night. Things have changed now; for the better that is.

Now that my mom is in prison, I moved in with my father, Tom, in East Lansing. Which is okay, I mean I'm not complaining. I missed my dad a lot since I was living with my mom for the majority of the time. Since then, life has been pretty great. I have a great family, I get to play basketball with the boys, I'm able go further in my music writing, and with my art

If you're wondering what my back story was, it was basically my parents got divorced when I was 5, my mom blamed it on myself and Kylie, I took her abuse to protect Kylie which led me to have severe depression, my classmates bullied me due to the abuse, and then I got my mom arrested, blah blah blah. I believe that it's made me a stronger person, but at the same time I just break at the thought of it at times.

When I moved to my dad's after the incident, Kensleigh showed me this youtube video. It was this set of twin boys. Their names were Ethan and Grayson. Kens had a giant crush on Grayson. I wasn't quite sure why she showed me one of their videos, but it was kind of alright I guess. After the video, I kind of just shrugged my shoulders and went on with my life.

For some reason I just couldn't get that Ethan kid out of my head. It was weird. So I looked up 'Ethan Dolan' in the youtube search box and clicked on another video. I instantly got hooked. My thoughts over flowed about Ethan. Ethan. Ethan. Ethan. On the flipside, I knew that I would never be able to meet him since he lives in California and I live in Michigan, so I kind of just put him in the back of my mind. It took a long time, but it happened. Besides, I needed to focus on my more important problems. Like this depression I'm battling everyday, my basketball career, my music writing, so on and so forth.