It Feels Right

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It was about a 3 months since I've seen Ethan last. Well in person I should say. I'd see his pictures on Instagram, and Snapchat. Grayson, and Ethan left to go back to LA. It was fine by me because then I would be able to walk through my house without feeling like I committed a crime. 

Kensleigh, and I have been pretty distant lately, and Addy has been over more often. The fact that Kens believes her over her own twin not only hurts me, but bothers me. Addy walks around like she did nothing wrong, when in fact she was the one that started this whole ordeal. All of my respect for her has been lost. She has crossed the line and she doesn't even care. 

When I was in the hospital I realized Kens wasn't even there. She didn't even care that I was hurting, she thought Grayson was more important. It's a sad time when your twin chooses a celebrity boy over her own twin sister. I guess Kens was different. 

I couldn't bring myself to talk to her at all. It was hard to even look at her. Kyle tried to get me to talk to her, but I just couldn't. I was hurt. I know that it was over a boy ,and her friend, but I'm her twin, and the fact that she thought that I was making it up just broke my heart.

 I basically just kept to myself for the time being. The quietness was actually kind of settling since this house was full of constant noise when Ethan, and Grayson were here. To be fully honest, I missed Ethan a lot. I stopped questioning my feelings for him because I knew they were real, yet did nothing about them when I had the chance. Instead, I took my Addy frustration out on him, and well, my depression too. He apologized, and I never let him voice his thought. But, he never tried to defend for me or calm me down during that conversation, so why would he try to make amends with me? 

Don't I have a right to be mad at him? I guess I'm just confused.