It Feels Right

twenty + 6

It only took us about twenty minutes to arrive at the hotel. The boys chose who they wanted to room with, while my dad was checking everyone in. To this day, it still blows my mind that MSU paid for all of us to come here. It's just so beautiful here. I couldn't stop looking out of the window until my dad tapped me on the shoulder to give me my room key.

 I finally managed to get myself away from the window and up to my room. The room was jaw dropping. I couldn't believe how big it was. So glad that Kylie will be staying with me in this otherwise I would be getting pretty lonely with all of this open space.

"Hey hey, guess who's here?" announcing with excitement.

"Probably not my little sister." too busy unpacking to look. 

"Wow, you're so great at this, but you forgot Hayes. So hey, I hate to break it to you, but you will be in here by yourself. The Griers have offered me to stay at their place. Their little sister Skylynn would like me to babysit her a few times, so it's just easier for me to stay with them in her room. I'm sorry. We're still on for everything else though. I made sure they knew my plans so I could babysit around it."

"Oh, alright. Well have fun over there. Hayes take care of my little sister. She's my right hand man."

"You don't have to worry about her, she'll be perfectly safe with me." He grabs her hand, and stares into her eyes.

"You two are cute. It's disgusting. Now leave while you can, or I'm taking her back." I laughed.

"Love you B! Text me if you need anything."

"Love you too. Will do." Looks like I get the room to myself, so that's cool I guess. The quietness was great until I heard some knocks on my door. I made my way to the door to see who was there. Looking through the peephole I could see Ethan. What did he want? I didn't want to talk to him because what if I say something that I don't mean? 

"Kolby, please open up. I need to talk to you. Please. It's urgent."

"What do you want Ethan?" I asked tiredly.

"I need to talk to you and preferably not through the door."

"I can't talk Et-" I rested my forehead on the door.

"No, please don't say that. I really need to talk to you, please just open up." I did as he pleased. He pushed through the doorway and sat on the bed. I was scared at his actions. He seemed so tense, and unhappy.

"Why?" he said staring into the floor

"Why what?"

"Why didn't you say anything?" finally looking up at me.

"Say anything about what? You have to be more precise on what you're talking about, otherwise I will get lost, and not understand." I walked towards him, but there was still a big space between us.

"Why didn't you tell me the rest of the story about Addy?" He finally looked up at me and our eyes locked. I could see the darkness in his eyes, like they were full of sadness, and anger. They went back and forth seeking for an answer. 

"What story?" I finally spoke up. 

"When she threatened you. You failed to mention that she had a picture of you trying to kill yourself. The driver told me everything. He's one of my best buds. First off-"

"First off what Ethan?! I didn't "fail to mention" anything." this made me so angry, "I told you guys what happened. No one believed me. I hate talking about how I've tried to take my life because it's not something that I'm necessarily proud of, yet I'm struggling everyday with it." he stood up and made a way to get closer to me, "Addy just had to add that on top of everything else. I don't even know where she got that picture and why she couldn't have just hung ou-" my anger was boiling

"IT'S BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO BE WITH HER. I WANTED TO HANG OUT WITH YOU KOLBY." I covered my ears and fell to the ground shaking. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to come here and scare you. I just wanted to know why you didn't tell me."

"I told you guys everything, but people choose what they want to hear and then they twist my words." my skin was turned cold, and my body was trembling. 

"I'm so sorry" he basically ended the conversation by finding himself his way out of my room.

I wasn't sure what just happened. The picture of Ethan yelling would not leave my head. I was scared he was going to hit me. But I didn't want Addy to know about this little meeting because then she would definitely put that picture out. Soon enough, it was time for dinner which means; Addy's wrath. I make sure I'm the first one down there to meet up with Kyle. I didn't want to take the chance of being alone, lord knows where Addy is at now a days.
Everyone was in the lobby, waiting for the cars, "Alright boys, same cars you were in from earlier. Same people, same driver." my dad stated.

"Yes sir." they all said in sync.

I see Addy glaring at me, and doing something with her phone. All through out the car ride I was stressing that she posted the picture. We reached the restaurant, Kens and Addy meeting the twins, Kylie's with Hayes, and then me who's wanting to run away. The waitress was very polite, and super sweet to every one of us. Once she took our drinks, we all started looking at the menus. 

The talking went down quite a bit, then everyone's phone went off. "Kolby Izzo suicidal? I think so." caption popped up on every single screen, even Hayes', Ethan's and Grayson's. I felt eyes piercing through my skin. I could tell my face was getting red, and my hands were sweaty, "Congrats Addy. You officially made my life miserable." I threw my napkin down on the table while standing up,"I am now that ticking time bomb that finally has exploded. Are you happy now?" my voice was cracking, "Yes, okay? I AM suicidal because if you knew what I've gone through, you would be too." Not even thinking twice, I ran out of the building. Streams of tears were running down my hot face. It was getting hard to breathe. What a great time Addy, A+ for you. I couldn't find the car I came in, so I started pacing faster and faster. Someone pulled on my arm; Ethan. 

"Kolby stop. Please stop. We can figure this out" his voice was calm and deep.

"No Ethan. No one believed me, and now I'm so fucking embarrassed and hurt. I'm done playing all of these stupid games! DONE! Just leave me alone, please." The car pulled up. I started to get in, then Ethan grabbed my hand again, "Please don't do this." his eyes got dark.

"You don't know what it's like, Ethan. I suggest you let me do before I do something that I will regret." He let go of my hand. I told the driver to take me back the hotel. My phone started buzzing, it was my dad. "Hello" I sniffled.

"Where are you going?"

"I'm going back to my room. I can't take this. I told you she was going to do this."

"Don't do anything, I'll be at the hotel soon after you arrive. I'm in the car behind you."

"Alright." I was scared out of my mind about what was going to happen. I kind of just wanted to go home.