Say My Name ➳ Isaac Lahey

twenty five

ELEANOR'S POV:

A few weeks had passed and slowly I was finding my feet, probably in the wrong direction though.

Yes I had seen the alpha pack, no I hadn't spent time with my friends because I simply didn't want to. I felt so different, I felt new emotions and new thoughts were finally in my head, but it still doesn't mean that the old ones would have disappeared somewhere, they were all still there.

I had gained power by the help of Aidan and Ethan. After the first training session we had done the same thing a few times a week. But as time has went on, Aidan and Ethan have somehow isolated themselves from the pack, I have no idea how they managed to do it.

I still didn't have a reasonable answer to my biggest questions, but I knew that it would all take some time.

The truth is that I hadn't entered school in these few weeks, my grades were shit, but I didn't care. My mom wasn't there to tell me what to do, god knows where she was. With a man? Maybe.

But today was the first day after these weeks that I bothered to leave for school.

I parked my car in the parking lot and sat in the car for a few minutes before getting out. I took a deep breathe and exhaled. What was I doing? No, I had to do this, I couldn't back out now.

I grabbed my bag, opened the door, stepped out of my car and locked it. "Here we go then," I whispered to myself.

I was wearing a black hoodie and some black jeans along with my old black and white converse. I probably looked like I was hungover or something, but I didn't care.

I walked towards the main doors where students were constantly going in and out of. I made my way through them and into the main hallway with my hood on my head and my books in my hands.

And in that moment heads began to turn and whispers filled the air, people talking to their friends saying things such as "she's back" and "I thought she was dead". Nope, I was still alive.

I walked over to my locker and basically pressed myself against it as I unlocked the door.

I quickly glanced to my left to see two girls just staring at me. I raised my eyebrows at them making them go away. In that same glance I saw Aidan and Ethan at the end of the hallway just looking straight at me. I gave them a some what fake smile and then turned back to my locker.

I placed a few books in it and them slammed it shut, but only to reveal that Scott was standing next to me. I slowly looked up at him, not saying a word.

"You're back then?" he questioned. "Or are you just visiting?" He didn't sound at all happy to see me or anything and I can completely understand why.

"I've fallen behind on everything," I replyed quietly.

"No wonder, you haven't turned up here for weeks," Scott said bluntly.

I sighed. "As you know, I've had a lot on my mind,"

"How could I forget." he said.

I threw my bag back on my shoulder. "Look, if you wanna yell at me or insult me for being the worst friend on this planet, go ahead,"

He shook his head. "That's not what I want to do. Have you got any idea how worried I've been? I've seen you once after everything that happened, do you expect me to stop caring after what they did to you?"

Being the stupid me, I couldn't think of an option like that. I as a person was something so different now, so different to the person everyone thought I was, what I thought I was.

"Scott," I whispered, my voice cracking slightly. "I'm sorry,"

I walked away from him and headed towards the boys changing rooms, since I knew that nobody would be in there at this time.

I found my way there and closed the door behind me and as I did sobs began to escape my mouth. My confidence had been dragged away from me, my trust in everyone along with it and I couldn't handle it.

I walked over to the sink with a mirror turning the tap on and washing my face. I leaned against the sink and stared down at the dirty white surface of the old sink.

For once in my life I had felt so incredibly much happiness before all of this, a kind of happiness that I didn't know a human being could actually feel.

God knows what all of my friends were dealing with. They were solving a mystery having to do with missing people and dead bodies. I couldn't help them.

And what was the alpha pack doing to them? Torturing them? Who knows. I didn't, since no one would tell me anything.

Suddenly I heard the door open and two voices echoed around the room, two familiar voices.

I quickly hid behind a bunch of lockers and listened.

"She's in school, go and find her," I recognized this voice. Allison.

"What would I say to her? We're done and nothing is gonna change that," I recognized this voice far too well, it was the voice I had missed, but still it was the voice that I didn't want to hear, I wasn't ready.

Isaac.

"I'm not saying that you two should be getting back together, that's your business, but she's gone through a hell of a lot," Allison said to him.

The two got me wondering. Where they friends now? They barely never talked earlier before.

"She's changed," Isaac said. I knew they were talking about me. "We're done, I can't talk about this anymore,"

After the word "done" slipped through his lips, a small tear slipped from the corner of my eye, but I kept the rest of them in.

The door opened and slammed shut and soon after that it happened again.

I peeked from behind the lockers and saw no one in sight.

I needed to get out of here. I just had to go. What the hell was I thinking when I thought that I could come back to school? I hadn't been in a single class all day and I wasn't going to.

I was done with this place, for good. I was a different me and I was going to keep on being a different me.