You say something, and I snap.
Not because of what you said specifically, but just because I've been wound up a lot today and yours was the statement that tipped me past my breaking point.
I know you think I'm overreacting. I know I'm hurting you. But what no one realizes is how much I hurt.
I hurt every day because of things out of my control. I hurt every second because I'm terrified I'm making mistakes. As confident as I seem, I'm just faking it. I've been faking it for such a long time that I'm not sure I'll ever truly become confident.
I didn't intend to hurt you, but I'd rather hurt you than subject myself to any more pain.
