i'm on the edge of a cliff
the stillness alarms me
then the wind starts
soft at first, a little breeze
my hair lifts off the back of my neck
then the wind is stronger
pushing at my back
i fall forward and down
pain is better than feeling nothing
but that doesn't mean it stops hurting
it never stops hurting
i'm at the bottom
of a seemingly endless staircase
that i must climb to reach my goals
the more steps i take the more there are above me
i can't turn around
to see how far i've come
all i can see is how far i have left to climb
the more steps i take the more i want to cry
pain is better than feeling nothing
but that doesn't mean it stops hurting
it never stops hurting
i'm in the middle of a storm
can't see anything
my mind is turning numb
i fight but it hurts to fight
might as well give in to the numbness
but if i do, i lose myself
i'm losing me
pain is better than feeling nothing
but it never stops hurting
