The ones I cannot forget

Tired and emotional

I felt a happy, confident feeling fill the pit of my stomach as Lee boarded. He stared at me and we made eye contact, he had the bluest eyes I had ever seen. They were striking. I didn't break eye contact with him and he stood in the isle staring at me. It was like some sexy music video but nothing came out if it. I grinned and he licked his lips.
Then I realised how stupid we looked and I fell about laughing. He did too. Once everyone was seated we started driving off. I had no idea where we were but I still enjoyed the beautiful sunset. I was just settling down into the mood, laying over Sarah as she slowly dozed off. I watched lily as she tiredly stared out the window like me.
Suddenly my phone buzzed and I switched it on.
"Oh I'm so sorry to hear about the horrid flight you had. I hope you're ok now like you say. How's things with you and Lee?" Katie had text. At the end of the message she had sent me the winking face. I laughed inside and replied.
"Yeah all good now. And I'm so thirsty for him... I want him ok I admit it. I got a little frisky earlier and started trying to seduce him and he bit the bate like a fish on a line. He said to meet him on the coach when everyone was asleep but I said it was only for couples. Yeah I want him to want me. I want to be his! It's so late now. It's like 10 here. What's going on where you are?" I sent the message and slid my phone back into my pocket.
The lights on the minibus had turned into a low periwinkle colour which made the coach look like a blue disco. I smiled at the sun which was almost all the way down underneath the ground now. It truly was gorgeous.
I looked ahead and saw Lee, laying down with only his muscular, hairy legs hanging over the side of the chairs. Lily was sleepily laying down, snuggling into her coat. Sarah was asleep too, she was delicately laying with her head placed on the window and legs curled up beside me. They looked adorable.
Ben was asleep as I could see him through the seat gap, he was non flatteringly laying with his head to one side, mouth open and dribbling.
As I was the only one properly awake I decided to think about things. I was Lee's "pretty" "sexy" "gorgeous" or "beautiful" not his girlfriend. Maybe getting frisky earlier wasn't a good idea.
But maybe it was, I wanted him so he should want me. It was so awful to like him. He just slapped girls around because he could. He was sexy...the only reason he wanted me was because I was the only one he had to work for. He had been with everyone at one stage, even Katie dated him before I got my job at the factory. I was the one he hadn't got.
I wished I was different but I knew I wasn't. We had already made out on a bench and ended up going to Spain but he wasn't ready to commit yet? Surely you date before you kiss?
But what if Katie was right and he really did like me for real? He never liked any of the girls he was with as it was all for show, maybe I was the one who finally taught him what love was? Was I his head turner? I was the only girl he had ever given his number too and he took me to Spain. He hadn't done that before. Nah it couldn't be.
It all hurt my head so I decided to settle down. The blue lights had dimmed noticeably and switched off when I lay my head on the back of the chair. It was going to take me forever to get to sleep. I decided to make Lee a nickname as he always had one for me. I decided on "cutie" as it made him sound more approachable and friendly. So he would be my cutie and I would never tell anyone...
When I woke up all I could hear was laughter. A girls laughter, no two girls. I also could hear a man chuckling but I couldn't recognise it. Then I hear a familiar voice grumble. It was Lee! How did Lee and these people get in my room?
I thrust my head forward in stress and confusion but when I opened my eyes was blinded with light. I didn't sleep with the curtains open...
It all came flooding back to me,but I was t excited for Spain I was nervous. Lee didn't like me. He just wanted me to show he was dominant. When I rubbed the crust out of my eyes I sighed to see everyone up the top of the coach. Sarah was obviously flirting with Ben, lily was right she had a thing for him. Lily was there too, she was single was she flirting with Lee?!?! She wouldn't they were only playing cards.
I felt disappointment flood through me, I felt so left out so I decided to just block out the world and lay down.
Lee caught my eye so I ignored him and carried on relaxing. I felt a touch on my hips and it felt uneasy. I flinched up and saw Lee sitting next to me. I wanted him but something felt so wrong. Id Convinced myself he was bad so I didn't think he was right anymore.
"Hey beautiful you awake" he teased making me sit up.
"Yeah" I mumbled. Something felt wrong and different.
"So you didn't come and see me last night, I missed you. I needed you last night" he sighed.
"Sorry but you know I don't want to have sex yet. I'm not ready for someone who I don't even date especially." I rubbed my forehead.
"So you're a virgin?" He asked with a laugh
"Yeah"
"Gotta teach you a thing" I shot him a look "when you're ready beautiful" he stroked my shoulder seductively.
"Whatever" I huffed not in the mood for him. I didn't know him.
"My beautiful is even sweet in the morning, gorgeous aren't you" he soothed sensing something was wrong.
"Yeah right" I muttered.
He stood up realising he couldn't change my mood. " well stay beautiful. We'll be at the services soon so you can do your hair and stress about make up" he teased. I forced a laugh.
It should have made me laugh but instead it made me cry! I lay down my head, body thrust along three seats. Actual tears rolled down my cheeks and I silently sobbed into the fabric of the chair. I felt so left out and rejected. He didn't love me, why didn't he? He was using me! I wanted to scream but held it in.
"You're tired and emotional Autumn it's not that big of a deal" I sobbed to myself. I just wanted him to be the sweet, funny sexy guy I knew. So why was he feeling so weird.
I stopped crying and sat up minutes before we pulled into the services. Everyone got off the bus without me. I went to get lily and Sarah's bag but they had taken it to sit with Lee. I wanted to cry against I hurried off the coach and followed the laughing group. Lee kept his eye on me.
"You're quiet beautiful" he muttered looking scared to touch me as if I was a dirty ticking time bomb.
"Just tired" I lied, fingers crossed. I watched the concrete pass beneath my feet and followed everyone into a Burger King. I went straight to the toilet, alone, why everyone queued up to get breakfast.
I fixed my hair and makeup, adjusting my casual outfit and sighing. I was having one of those days where you look awful no matter what.
I strolled out to the restaurant where lily and Sarah were sitting in front of Lee and Ben. Lily pulled a chair up for me.
"Omg I can tell why you get so frisky with Lee" lily giggled. " he's so fun!" She added.
I couldn't believe it, she had a crush in me Lee.
" you've dated him before" I muttered protectively.
"One night stand count? and we didn't have sex we just made out!" She asked laughing. I loved lily loads but today I felt like I wanted to slap her.i shot her an icy look. "But of course you and him are... So I'd never.... It's not like... We're just friends" she muttered awkwardly.
"Good" I growled.i didn't even know why I was being so moody.
"Tired and emotional" was all that echoed in my head.
"In other news I think I'm falling for Ben" Sarah turned the conversation away.
"Yeah I told you so!" Lily winked at me, glossing over what just happened. On a normal day I would say "you guys are perfect, he'll ask you out soon and you'll be the cutest couple ever!" But today I said "yeah your flirting was so obvious" with a sigh.
"Are you ok" Sarah asked unnervingly.
"Fine" I growled Standing up and walking over to the vending machine.i slammed my money inside and pulled out a Fanta. When I got back to the table I smacked my drink down.
"You should come and join me Lee and the others when we get back" lily smiled, trying to not act awkward.
The way she said "me and Lee... And the others" angered me. " no I'm fine" I sighed. This was going to be one hell of a journey...

Hello people of this app, it's me. How was this part huh? Autumn is tired and emotional, grumpy guts. Who doesn't get like that on a lack of sleep though? Will she sort her mood out by the end of the day? Could this ruin her friendships and relationship with Lee? What would happen if everyone happened to ditch her? Please comment as they're so special to read and I love you guys for getting to this chapter! Bye ! Xxx