The ones I cannot forget

The disastrous night

I added my brand new, special eye shadow which was a dark blue with glitter in it. I used my gel eyeliner to make my cat eyes and put on double layers of mascara. The blush was a dark pink which matched my hot pink lipstick.
Lily walked out of the bathroom wrapped in a towel. She patted me on the shoulder.
"Gorgeous Autumn" she smiled before joining me at the mirror.
"Gonna shower peeps brb" Sarah laughed, jumping up. I stayed staring in the mirror disappointedly at my face. Disastrous.
"I don't even know where to begin with this face" lily sighed.
"It's easy, don't wear makeup you're naturally beautiful" I smiled.
"Nope that's Sarah she never wears makeup" lily laughed and we continued with pur routines as Sarah walked out.
"My name?" She asked looking flushed from the hot shower.
"Just saying how you never wear makeup" lily smiled at her as she opened up her makeup.
"You can do your hair now" I shouted to Sarah over the noise of Lily's hair dryer.
I studied my wardrobe and eventually threw on a ruby red shoulder cut dress over a strapless bra. My shoes were red diamanté heels that glistened in the light.
"Dang you look amazing" said Sarah as we grabbed our bags to leave. She was wearing a low cut, dark blue top with "real life princess" written on it in pink sequins. She had black leather trousers and dark blue flats with little pink bows on them.
"Thanks so much, you do too!" I replied, blushing.
"Yeah. you do Autumn, gorgeous" lily added. She was wearing a purple pencil dress which had little hip cuts. Her shoes were black boots with purple laces.
"And you I love that dress" I smiled thankfully, blushing more.
I locked the door and stepped down the sunset lit steps. The sky was turning light pink with a blue fading into and it was beautiful.
I knocked on Lee's door and Ben answered. He was wearing a smart suit with a black tie. His mouth fell open but he wasn't looking at me, he was looking past me. I looked behind me and saw Sarah blushing at him. I stepped out of the way and he walked to her.
"Stunning" I heard him mutter under his breath as he walked past me.
"May I?" He asked, holding his arm out to Sarah.
"Yeah" Sarah let out a high pitched giggle and linked her arm over bens. It was like something out of a Disney movie, me and lily looked at each other and smiled. Suddenly I felt strong hands squeeze my shoulder.
"What's so satisfying?" Lee asked loudly hugging me from behind. It felt amazing.
"Look who's getting closer?" I giggled.
" aww they both deserve eachother" he smiled too, locking up the door.
"Tell me about it" i laughed.
"I know right" lily exclaimed running over to me.
Lee led the way to the club, me by his side, lily just behind me. Sarah and be walked arm in arm a metre behind us. We watched the sunset.
The club was large and grey on the outside with small, budget flashing lights. However on the inside it was a massive hall lit with dim, cyan lights. There was a huge dance floor. Around the floor were little booths of comfy looking plush seats all different sizes.
" I'm going to the bar" Lee squeezed past me and walked away.
"We're going to dance" Sarah gave a happy smile and pointed at Ben excitedly to us when he turned his back. I nodded.
"Lets go dance bitch!" Lily shouted over the thumping music.
"Alright let me just put a plaster on and I'll be over there" I a Smiled as she walked into the darkness. I sat on a chair of a booth and took of my shoes revealing a big blister. I slipped a plaster over it and slid my shoe back on. Time to dance.
As I stood up right in front of me was Sarah and Ben... KISSING! They were full on making out and licking each others throats.
"To my room now" I heard Ben say as he pulled away from Sarah.
" oh wow, you're gonna break my virginity now?" Sarah laughed.
" and I'm breaking my own" Ben chuckled pulling her away.
It should have made me really happy, but instead it made me want to cry. It was so easy for her. She found the guy she liked and he liked her too, before no time they were breaking their virginity.
"Lucky" I mumbled, bottom lip wobbling. I realised how much sleep I had last night.
"You're tired and emotional again" I thought to myself, walking to go and find lily.
I couldn't find her anywhere so I went to the bar to ask Lee.
"Let me buy you a drink then" he chuckled seductively. He was flirting with some barbie like blonde girl who was going to play him. It hit me like a slap in the face. I gasped, shocked. I tried to step back but some man tripped over me and spilt his drink down my front. I screamed but he put his hand over my mouth and dragged me away. I mumbled as loud as I could for Lee but he didn't even glance in my direction.
"This is the most disastrous night ever" I thought to myself panicky. I looked up, the man dragging me looked so much like Sean. It couldn't be... It was.
I kicked my heels and tried to scream as I was dragged off the dance floor and shoved into a booth.
"Ok Autumn you're getting raped by Sean. There goes you're virginity and you're gonna get pregnant and-"
"Sorry about that but I like you're sexy face" the man giggled, slurring his words. Luckily it wasn't Sean but I needed a way to get out of this.
I grabbed the napkin ring and shoved it on my finger.
"You're cute too" I lied.
" right here right now" he slurred.
"I would but I'm married" I sighed apologetically flashing the fake ring.
"Damn" the man sighed before walking off. I held my breath as he did and then ran out the club... Smashing into a waitress who happened to be carrying Yeager bombs.
"GET OUT YOU STUPID IDIOT LOW LIFE! MY DRINKS" she shouted causing everyone's burning eyes to fall on me. I nodded.
"Sorry" I shivered apologetically and Wasted no further time before running out of the club and onto the Spanish pavement.
I bent down and let my heart beat slow, but for some reason it didn't. Instead tears fell from my eyes onto the floor.
It was the most disastrous night out yet. What could be worse? I was covered in drink, smelt gross, my friend was lost, my other friend was away having her easy life with sex, I was slightly homesick and my romantic interest was in the club ordering a drink for another girl! I pictured him, hands all over her. I sighed
"Autumn you had nothing. You never were a THING idiot." I thought. Then I remembered that afternoon in the bench, how he called me beach babe, the way he gave me his number, the way he invited me here, the way he pulled me to the club, holding my hands and more.
I started feeling hot, cars driving past looked bigger and echoed quietly, everything fuzzed away liked when a camera lost focus. The world spun and tingles shot up my fingers. I knew this feeling, I was having a panic attack. This night couldn't get any worse now.
"Autumn? There you are- omg Autumn, AUTUMN AUTUMN AUTUMN! OMG! " I heard someone scream and flop by my side. The concrete felt surprisingly cold underneath my limbs and I could only cry, I couldn't talk.
"IM CALLING THE AMBULANCE AUTUMN. SAY SOMETHING PLEASE AUTUMN AUTUMN PLEASE" I felt a shaky hand touch me which felt like an electric shock, a surrendering sob followed. "Please Autumn... I'm so scared" I squeezed the persons hand and closed my eyes using tips I learnt from therapy.
After a few seconds the panic attack was reduced and then it was gone after some more seconds.
"I'm so sorry" I muttered through chattering teeth.
"Autumn! Oh my god please don't ever do that again" she lay down on the hard concrete, hugging my shaky body hard. Noticed her mascara was running.
"I'm sorry I couldn't help it." I shivered and tried to sit up.
"What was....that?" She asked, wiping her eyes.
" a few years ago I was in a lovely relationship. I loved him, so so so much. One day I found him cheating on me and I started having trust issues and panic attacks. At that time I didn't know but Leon, my brother, made me go to the doctors. I was diagnosed with serious anxiety, and now I have panic attacks often. That's what this was" I explained.
"Why didn't you tell me? I was so worried I'm so so so so so sorry for you. We're going home right now" she stood up shocked.
"It's ok. Please don't tell Sarah, I don't want her to worry too" I asked, pushing up off the hard wall and scraping my elbows.
"Ok then I promise" she said. We walked off ages, she held me upright as my heart beat was still way to fast and I could barely stand.
"Do you even know where you're going?" I asked her worriedly.
"Well it was Lee who took us here first" she shrugged apologetically.
"Do you know where we are?" I pushed. She was hesitant with her reply and we stood still, shivering in the cold night air.
"No" she muttered...

Hi guys, it's me! Was this a good part? So Autumn had the most disastrous night out she'd had in some time.everything went wrong and now she's lost. Will she be able to control herself or will she have another panic attack? Will she ever find her way back to the village? Please comment as reading them is so amazing and thank you for reading this far. I love you guys lots and lots and I'll see you in another part. Ily, bye! Xxx