I'd be dead with out you.

chapter 11

ANGELS POV

Alan's alarm went off at five forty five and after last nights escapades neither of us were too happy to have to wake up. Alan got out of bed first and started a shower. I heard laughter about the house and it just made everything bittersweet. I followed Alan into the shower as we tired to spend as much time with each other as physically possible. Sure call us clingy but we just really like each other.  The bad premonitions I had from the other night just grew and hung like a dark cloud over my head. I didn't tell Alan because he would just tell me not to worry and that everything would be fine and that doesn't help my situation. Surprisingly he had kept my mind off of it for a while. After finishing the shower I got out and changed and threw him some cloths. Neither of us wanted breakfast and had stated so but I found myself in the kitchen anyway. I didn't want him leaving with nothing in his stomach. He smiled as he came down and I returned it while handing him a granola bar and some coffee. Evan and Austin were currently occupying the couch and saying their goodbyes as the boys had to leave in about twenty minutes. Aaron had went over to his girlfriends last night so everyone was meeting at the recording studio and then embarking.

  "Babe you do realize this isn't permanent. No ones dying here okay?" Alan said. I giggled and turned my face into his chest as he hugged me. He always smelt so nice and it calmed me down.

"I know I just want you to have fun," I told him and he smiled and I kissed him.

"Lets go going," Austin said too soon. I smiled and put on an act as they left even walking with them to the car to give Alan one last kiss.

"I'll call you later baby," He whispered.

"You fucking better," I said feeling tears start to prick at my eyes. Evan and I watched as they drove off and walked back upstairs at the same time. They took Tino's car that way both Evan and I had a way of transportation. I hadn't planned on going anywhere but Alan left me his keys just in case.

"You goanna be alright there angel you look a bit worried," Evan said breaking the silence.

"I just have a bad feeling like something's going to happen," I told her while flopping down on the couch and picking up one of the many bridal magazines laying around.

"You will be okay I promise. you have me. You're probably are just a little apprehensive because this is the first time you have been left alone for a long while," Evan said putting everything into perspective for me. I looked up and smiled and patted the couch next to me.

"We should probably get started on this before the boys come back," I said. She came over apprehensively. Recently she has been a bit less excited about the whole wedding thing. I just hoped she wouldn't want to postpone it. We searched meticulously through every single catalog but still didn't have an exact idea of what we wanted the reception to look like. Evan did however choose better colors and a date. It was nine Am and we were both lazily lounging when both our phones rang. I grabbed mine answering without hesitation.

"Hello?" I said with a smile on my face.

"Hey baby girl! We made it to the first venue. It's beautiful here and I wish you were with me because then everything would be perfect," Alan said. He had obviously had a few energy drinks.

"That's great babe," I said while walking upstairs. "Evan and I have been busy planning but she seems more reluctant," I told him. There was a long pause.

"Well maybe she just needs some space you know? Oh the second half of our tour was canceled and so we will be home next week. Don't tell Evan were keeping It a secret," Alan said. The mere thought of the boys being home early made my heart do a backflip.

"Your secret is safe with me," I told him and he chuckled. We talked about everything and nothing at all. I heard their tour manager say it was time for sound check and Alan sighed.

"Well that's my warning to leave babe. Listen everything is going to be fine. I know you are worrying I can tell from here. Just take a deep breath and remember my face. See ya soon babe," He said and hung up. He was so perceptive of how I was feeling. I guess that's what I loved most about him.

"Did you guys have a nice talk? you spent more time on the phone than Austin and I did," Evan teased as I came down the stairs.

"Sure we did. Yes we had a nice talk," I said not wanting to to say anything more in fear of spilling the secret. She smiled at her phone and I sat back on the couch to soon pass out.