I'd be dead with out you.

chapter 39

I woke up the next morning in a fit of tears and a pool of sweat. I had the same dream three times. No matter how many times I woke myself up it wouldn't go away. I had a dream that instead of everything turning out okay Alan died and I was utterly devistated and left by myself. Aaron was standing over me with a worried expression.

"I'm fine. Just a bad dream. Just a bad dream," I said shakily as I sat up.

"What did you dream?" He asked me.

"That Alan died. That i was left alone and that you guys went on like nothing happened," I said drawing my knees up to my chest. It was seven AM and visting hours at the hospital started at eight.

"For one thing we would never do that and for another Alan is fine," Aaron said patting my back at an attempt to comfort me.  I sighed and put my head down. I hated that Alan was in the hospital alone and I was here. I should have just taken him with me instead of letting him come out here. I had to tell him that was where I was going all the time. After what's happened I don't ever want to keep anything from him. I got up and got myself some water and pulled out the carton of eggs.

"I'm going to make breakfast. Mainly just to keep my mind off of things okay?" I asked Aaron as he followed me in.

"Sure. I'll go shower and get ready that way when your done cooking you can eat and we can just go," Aaron said. I didn't have a change of cloths or anything so i wasn't worried about the way I looked.

"Angel?" Aaron asked popping his head back in.

"Yeah?" I said turning around.

"He's alright. We are all okay. Stop worrying it's not good for the baby," He said after a moment of silence.

"Okay," I said with a half assed smile.  My phone buzzed letting me know that I had a text.

"EVAN: Hey. Are you alright? Do you want me and Austin to stop by?" She asked.

"ME: No I am fine. Cooking breakfast now and then going to the hospital. I'll update you with what's going on later," I said and shoved my phone in my pocket.  I finished the eggs and wolfed them down. Food was something I always lean on when I am anxious about something. This was no diffrent.

"Ready?" Aaron asked. I smiled and nodded grabbing my purse from the counter and putting my dish in the sink.

"You ate fast," Aaron said with a smirk.

"I was just hungry. Happens when you are pregnant," I replied sarcastically.

"Where were you by the way? Yesterday I mean when he crashed?" Aaron asked quickly as we walked to the car.

"I was..uh... visiting Micheal?" I said wincing as I said Micheal's name out loud. Everyone still hated him and the only person that knew I even had contact with him was Evan.

"You were doing what? Angel what the hell made you do that?" Aaron asked.

"He said if I came and visited him that the attacks would stop," I said getting in the car. I knew this was how he would respond. He'd tell me i'm stupid to believe him and that just talking to someone won't make them change their minds about something like attacking others.  At least I thought I'd known that was what he would say.

"Okay. I understand. Does Alan know?" Aaron asked buckling in and leaving the complex.

"No. I'm telling him today. I don't know why I kept it from him but that was a thing and I just I don't know," I said trying to focus on the cars around us. This stretch of road was where it happened and I even saw some of the left over debris in the road.

"Alright. Listen go easy with him okay. I know you know better than anyone what state he is in but just remember he's in very fragile state," Aaron said. I rolled my eyes.

"Yes mom," I said and smiled the first actual smile since the whole thing happned. We parked at the hospital and I rushed out not even stoping to aknowlage the nurses trying to stop me. I got to his room and found him sleeping. The machines were still hooked up to him and a soft constant beeping rang out across the room. I sat in the chair beside him and gently took his hand. With in a few moments his eyes fluttered open and a smile softly spread across his face.

"Good morning," He said horsely. I reached and got his cup of water for him.

"Thanks," He said sipping it greatfully.

"I'm sorry Alan." I said. I don't know what I was more sorry for the fact that I saw Micheal behind his back or the fact that he was here in a lonely hospital room.

"Sorry for what?" He asked.

"The other day when i said i was helping jessica. I wasn't I was visiting Micheal becuse he said if I did so the Attacks would stop and they have so far and I'm just sorry I didn't tell you," I said as fast as the words would come out of my mouth.

"I know." Was all he said. Two words. I was confused.

"What?" I asked.

"I got supsicious that you went to help jess with something every thursday so I asked Evan what she knew and she told me. I didn't stop you because I don't think he can hurt you from behind the glass but now I want to go with you okay?" He said. I should have know Evan would tell him if he asked her.

"Okay. What did the doctor say? About you coming home that is?" I asked him.

"He said I can leave this afternoon most likely but I can't drive or do anything. Basically I have to lay around for a few days," Alan said. I hated to think of him bed ridden but I was glad he wouldn't have to be here.

"Okay. That's good right," I said moving his hair away from his bandages on his head.

"Yeah. I can't wait to get home. I only spent one night here and I already hate it," Alan said.

"Haha yeah I understand. How about I go down and steal you some breakfast and we can have like a mini date and talk some more about what you want to name our kid," I said with  a sad smile.

"Alright. I love you Angel," Alan said.

"I love you too," I said just before walking out.