I'd be dead with out you.

chapter 41

I drove to the prison because I had it down like the back of my hand by now. I wasn't used to having people along with me. I had just now started telling everyone I was visiting Micheal in the first place. Evan sat passenger side fumbling with the radio.

"I swear the boys better get back before we are too big to drive," I sighed. These little sports cars were great if you aren't pregnant and worried about being stuck behind the wheel. Evan nodded in agreement but stayed silent. I knew she didn't sleep well last night and that made her cranky so I just let the radio play. Eventually we pulled in behind the chain link guarded fence and walked to the main office. I signed us in and we went through security and ll that but when we got to the visitation room I stopped her. Truth be told I don't know how Micheal will react and I don't want to put her in any danger. Yeah there are guards but that doesn't mean he will act civil.

"Thanks for coming with me. It means a lot and i'm glad to have you with me, but this has got to be between the two of us," I said trying to read her face to make sure she wasn't pissed off about it. She nodded and gave me a half smile which let me know she understood. I walked over to the bench and took my seat and watched as he took his registering what he had just saw.

"So, not only did you leave me but now you are engaged and you're having a kid. Christ!" Micheal said with a bit of venom in his voice. I sighed. Great so this was starting off well.

"Yeah. And you know what, I'm actually pretty happy. Micheal you can have anyone you want. That was proven when I was seventeen. I left because you treated me like shit and I found the man of my dreams. For real this time. We are very excited for this baby and I just I didn't visit last week because I didn't know how to tell you. But now I realize that there really isn't a good way to tell an ex-lover that you have moved on. I'd say i'm sorry but honestly this is the happiest I've ever been," I said looking down at my hands the whole time. I knew he was going to be less than excited.

"You'll still visit right?" He asked me after a long pause.

"Yes. I never planned on stopping Oh and did you have anything to do with getting my fiance killed?" I asked him. This caught him by surprise. It had been a while since it happened but I had to ask.

"No. That was pure accident. I'm not going to hurt you anymore. I thought if I retaliated I would get you back but that is obviously not going to happen," He said with a huff.

"Fine. Listen my friend Evan who is also pregnant is waiting and we have a doctors appointment so I'm gonna have to go. See ya next week," I said and hung the phone that connected us up before he could protest. Before I left my spot i heard him yell.

"Watch your back bitch," Micheal said. I should have known he wouldn't have taken this well. I walked over to where Evan was seated and put on my best poker face. No one else seemed to hear what he said so I tried to play it off like it didn't happen.

"How did it go?" Evan asked as I helped her up. I sighed and tried to keep my poker face in tact.

"I don't really know. I don't want to talk about it," I said as we walked out. Luckily Evan wasn't one to pry.

"Okay," She said. The whole ride to the doctors office was silent only interrupted by the radio and the sound of traffic around us. We got there right in time for our appointments but we had to wait for a nurse to call our names. Evan looked nervous but I just kind of was happy. Either way I would be happy. My phone had been blowing up ever since we got here.

"Hey what's going on?"

"Angel?"

"Is your phone dead?" Alan texted rapidly.

"Hey just got to the doctors. Evan was just called in and I'll be in soon after. If you aren't busy you're going to want to face time me," I said.

"In an interview. Shouldn't be too long," Alan said and I could tell he had to be bubbling with excitement.  The nurse came out and called my name and I followed her back to a room where we went over my extensive medical history.

"You said you may be allergic to penicillin?" She asked. I nodded.

"Alright. The doctor should be in soon," She said and left closing the door behind her. I pulled out my phone and Face time'd Alan. I knew he wouldn't care if I interrupted his interview. There were some things that were more important.

"Hey. Sorry to cut this short but my girlfriends getting and ultrasound to find out what our baby is so," Alan said hopping up having already answered. He left and ran back to the bus sitting on the couch. I could hear Tino and Phil and Aaron in the background talking quietly.

"Is the doctor there yet?" He asked me.

"Nope She should be in as soon as she is done with Evan," I said and i could hear the bus door fly open and Austin run by.

"Well by the looks of it, it should be soon," He said. I smiled. I knew Austin and Evan didn't want to necessarily share this moment with all the guys but I had no problem with it. They were there for all my big moments and I wanted them there for this one. We chit chatted and then the door nob turned.

"Okay here we go," The doctor said. I saw all the guys minus Austin crowd around the tiny phone to get a glimpse. Alan's head took up most of the screen though. I flipped the camera so they could see the screen as the doctor put the cool Gel on my tummy. She took the transducer wand and started moving it to get a clear picture of the baby. Once she did so she paused the screen and took a look.

"Congratulations Mr. Ashby and Angel. It's a boy!" She said happily. Alan had tears in his eyes and the guys yelled happily in the background. I myself was crying with happiness as I looked the little guy growing inside me. Alan got up and left the guys to talk as he crawled into his bunk.

"Do you guys want this DVD?" The doctor asked.

"Yes!" We both answered at the same time. I knew he wanted to share this with his mom and I wanted to send it to my Aunt. I got cleaned up and pulled my shirt down.

"Go celebrate baby. There isn't much else going on," I said standing immediately wishing I haddn't.

"I love you. Both of you," Alan said. That registered just before I fell. I saw his face and then everything went black and I couldn't hear. I was still conscious but I couldn't see or hear. I felt the back of my head throb with pain and was glad i fell backwards. That was the last thing I remembered before it all faded away.

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Due to the fact that i wanted to end this and sierra thought it was a damn stupid idea i will write some more before the sequel. Much love -nikki