I'd be dead with out you.

chapter 42

I woke up and immediately heard Alan screaming my name though he sounded far away.

"Hey hey I'm alright," I said groggily and picked up my phone now remembering where I was. He looked worried but smiled when he saw my face.

"Listen I better go they are going to run some tests okay? I love you," I said.

"Love you more," He said and ended the call.  I looked up at the doctor who grabbed a rolling chair and put me down in it gently. They ran some blood pressure tests and some heart checks on the baby but eventually they determined that I was going to be alright.

"Listen you have to be careful because that could hurt the baby so if anything starts going wrong come in immediately," My doctor said. I nodded and smiled happy that I could leave. I met Evan out in the lobby She looked worried but also happy.  

"So?" I asked with a big smile on my face. She rolled her eyes but  a big smile spread across her face.

"Mines a boy!" I said trying to Coax her into telling me about her kid. I hoped it was a boy for her too. They could be like little video game nerds when they get older. Just like their daddy's.

"Well. I won my bet with Austin. It's a girl," She said softly. My smile got bigger. She will be beautiful.

"Aw she's gonna be the cutest damn thing ever. I'm happy for you," I said keeping the falling thing to myself.

"Is Alan happy it's a boy?" Evan asked as we got in the car.

"Yeah. I mean it'll be like him having another buddy in the house. Instead of one kid i'm blessed with two," I said with a slight chuckle. The events of the day had really taken it out of me and honestly I just wanted to go home and rest. It was only 12:00 and Evan gave me that look that let me know she was incredibly hungry. I pulled into taco bell and we walked in to the well air conditioned restaurant. She ordered her food first and I got a supreme chalupa and some nachos along with a large drink. Being pregnant sure can make you hungry. We chose a quiet booth in the corner to eat at so that we wouldn't be bothered.

"You know I hope the guys are going to take some time off when this kid gets here. Not that I don't want them to be able to work but still we are going to need some fucking help," Evan said tearing into her food. I nodded in agreement.

"Well I know Alan was talking about a break. Like more studio time or something. I think they know what's coming," I said to ease her mind.

"Are you ready for this?" She asked questioning me.

"I was not at all ready for this kid when it came along. He wasn't exactly planned. But I don't think anyone is really ready for their first kid. They can plan and plan and read everything out there and choose cloths and things but once that baby gets there, it's a whole different story," I said finishing my chalupa.

"I guess that's true. I just want to be a good parent and I want my kid to grow up in a good home you know. I don't want this to fall apart," Evan said obviously letting her emotions show today. Hormones do crazy things like that. I laughed.

"You won't fall apart. Austin loves you more than anything and you are married and both have good jobs. You will be fine you are so prepared it's ridiculous," I said. She smiled looking relieved.

"I guess you are right. I just need to sleep. I haven't slept in for fucking ever it seems," Evan said.

"Well we are heading home and I have to clean my apartment before the boys comeback Sunday so you can rest as long as you want," I said getting up and throwing away our trash and heading to the car.

"I probably need to talk to Alan and figure out this name. I mean we have talked about it before but not seriously," I said as we got back on the highway.

"Yeah. Austin was convinced it would be a boy so we have a lot to talk about name wise," Evan said with a yawn. I didn't keep the conversation going because I knew she would fall asleep. It took me twenty minutes to get home and I dreaded walking up the stairs. Truth be told I was tired too. I had a big day with Micheal and falling. I shook Evan awake and she groggily got out of the car. We walked to our respective apartments and went our own ways. I looked at my phone to see an abundance of texts from Alan and Austin. All were asking if i was alright.

"Guys I am fine. Congrats to you daddy's," I sent in a group message.  They sent back smiley faces which let me know they were about to go onstage. I was going to clean but what the doctor said kept ringing in my mind so I took it a little at a time. I ended up texting john that I was coming in tomorrow that way I didn't sit around the house all day tomorrow. This was getting a little stressful.

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Alan's P.O.V.

I checked my phone to see that Angel had replied. She said she was fine. I was worried about her because of the fall she had earlier today. She reminded myself and Austin again that we were going to be dad's and honestly I was just a big ball of excitement. I was supposed to be taking it easy but I've been bouncing off the walls ever since we found out earlier that I was having a little boy. Tonight was the last show fortunately and I would be home to see my family in no time. Austin and I agreed to take some time off now until after the baby's are born. Austin didn't share with anyone the sex of his child and that drove the guys crazy. Angel and I however decided to share our moment with the rest of the guys and they were ecstatic about it. It was like being an 'uncle' was the biggest deal for them.

"Ready for tonight?" Phil asked. I watched as a crew member set my stool out for me. I hated that thing it was so constricting but I didn't want to hurt myself anymore and I told Angel I'd take it easy so I used it.

"Yeah. Ready to get home!" I said with a small smile.

"You've changed bro," Tino said laughing just as we went on. When I started this journey I never thought it would end here. With me having a super hot fieance and a cute baby on the way.

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The End! Don't worry there is more where that came from. In the next book I'll take you behind the scenes and on the tourbus of your favorite band!