Hello!
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Are they speak to me?
Oh god, they're speaking to me.
What do I say?
What do I do?
Oh god.
Oh god oh god oh god.
It's been too long now, they'll know I'm crazy.
Oh god oh god.
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Hi...
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Oh god, what a dumb thing to say.
I'm such an idiot.
Now they'll never talk to me again.
Oh, I just want to die.
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How are you?
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Not okay.
Not okay.
Really not okay.
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I'm okay....
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I forgot to ask how they are!
They're going to thing I'm so rude!
But it's been too long now.
Way too long.
I'm such a horrible person!
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Good! Let's walk to class together!
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No.
No no no no no no no.
No.
Definitely not.
No.
I won't know what to say!
I won't know what to do!
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Umm... okay...
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What!?
No!
Why would I say that!?
Why I can't I just say no!?
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Great! Are you going this way?
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No!
Think of something!
Think of anything!
I have to...see the nurse!
I have to...meet a friend!
My Mum needs me home!
I'm sick!
My grandma just died!
Anything!
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... yes...
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Oh no!
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Great! Let's go!
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No!
Everyone's looking at me.
I look weird.
I'm breathing too loudly.
I can feel me heartbeat.
The silence is awkward.
I can't think of anything to say.
My palms are sweaty.
I feel sick.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm. Not. Okay.
Not okay.
Not okay.
Not.
Okay.
...I just want to be normal...
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YOU ARE READING
To Be Depressed
Non-Fiction"If you think about being happy, you'll be happy." "Don't be so pessimistic!" "Everyone else can get through it, why can't you?" "Attention seeker!" You trying feeling like this then, if it's so easy... This is just my views on depression, a "taboo"...
