Invisible (C.T.H)

{Chapter Thirteen}

Maddie's POV

My date with Calum went extremely well. It was possibly the best night of my life. Well, apart from when he asked me to be his girlfriend. It's been 4 weeks since Calum and I started dating, and we're doing so well. The tour has been going on for 5 months.

I woke up not too long ago due to a bad dream. I've been laying in the bed for a few minutes, then lightly rolled over to check what time it was. I quietly groaned when the clock said 3:30. I exit the room and go to the kitchen, getting a glass of water. I down it pretty quickly and go to the couch. I pull out my phone and open up Twitter. Not a good idea, I know. But, there's nothing else to do.

As soon as it loads, my mentions are full of hate comments. There's the usual few nice ones, but other than that, they're all hate. I don't read any of them, but there are two that catch my eye.

"@MaddiexHemmo, you're so ugly and pathetic. All you're doing is getting in the way of the boys' careers. Do us all a favor and go away. Nobody likes you," Ouch, that one hurt a bit. I look at the next one and I instantly go numb.

"Luke may be your brother, but he doesn't love you. Nobody will ever love a piece of shit like you. Kill yourself, please. It'll do us all good."

That one broke me. I closed out of the app and went back to the room, pulling out my suitcase. I grabbed my toiletry bag and went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and cringed at what I saw. My eyes were all puffy from tears, which, I didn't even know were falling down my face. My hair was a mess. I, in general, am nothing but a mess.

I dig through my bag and run my fingers over the familiar surface of the razor. I pull it out and look at it, contemplating my decision. I sigh and make two small cuts on my wrist, then clean up the blood and put it back into the bag. I grab my bracelets that I used to wear all the time, even when I didn't cut, from my bag and slip them on.

I then splashed water on my face and exited the bathroom, putting my bag back into my suitcase. I go back into the living room and do my usual late night/early morning routine. I went outside on the balcony and sat down in a chair, looking up at the sky. I deeply inhale the scent of the Oklahoma air. The boys are playing in Tulsa later tonight, so, we arrived a day early. It's nice here, honestly.

I think I was outside for half an hour, when I heard noises coming from inside. I turn around and look in through the door, noticing Michael in the kitchen. I go back inside and sit down on the couch, still not being noticed. I decide to speak up and scare him. I stand up and walk behind him, poking his sides.

"Michael, what are you doing?" I asked while whispering, earning a giant jump from him. He turned around and glared at me.

"Fuck Maddie. You scared the living shit out of me," he replied. I quietly chuckled and wrapped my arms around his waist in a hug. I whispered again.

"You can't say you didn't enjoy it. I got you good," I stated, getting an eye roll in return. He walked into the living room and sat on the couch. I followed him and sat on the opposite side, crossing my legs.

"What are you doing up, Mikey?" I asked, highly confused.

"I was hungry, so I wanted to see if we had any snacks in here," he shrugged, looking at me.

"What about yourself?" He asked in return, cocking an eyebrow in my direction.

"I had a bad dream and I couldn't fall back asleep," I shrugged, leaning back to where I was laying down. I put my feet on Michael's lap, him tapping my thighs. He nodded in response.

"Sorry Maddie. Anything I can do to help?" He asked concerned. I softly smiled and shook my head.

"No, it's okay. Thank you, though, Mikey. You can go back to bed now if you'd like, you have a show tonight," I reminded him and he nodded, standing up. He hugged me again and kissed my cheek, then went to his and Ashton's room again. I sat there in complete silence, which, was highly deafening.

I decide to listen to music, so I look around the room for some earbuds. I spot Luke's on a nearby table, so I grab them and plug them into my phone. I click shuffle and the sound of Blink-182 fills my ears. I relax and start getting drowsy again, slowly emptying my mind. My eyes start to slowly droop and I'm instantly consumed by darkness.

A/N:
Here's the new chapter, lovelies! Okay, so a few things I want to say.

1. I don't encourage self mutilation in any way, shape, or form. Nor do I encourage abuse of any kind. This is just part of the story and if it triggers you, I suggest you don't read this chapter.

2. Just to be clear so you all know, nobody knows Maddie used to cut except herself. She started it whenever Logan first started abusing her, but didn't do it as frequently whenever they broke up. Maddie is based off of me, but I don't have experience with cutting. I just made it part of the story because if you look at the title of this book, it has something to do with the idea of this story.

3. Thank you all so much for always reading, voting, and commenting. It honestly means the world and words can't even begin to express how glad I am about this. I'm almost at 400 reads and yes, I know it's not a lot compared to most stories on here, but it's so important and special to me. I never thought I would get any reads when I first started. It's just so extraordinary. Thank you so much, I love you. Stay amazing and beautiful!

Go check out the QOTD on the other chapters as well.

QOTC: What are your favorite movies?

AOTC: Now You See Me 1 & 2, Divergent series, Fast and Furious series, Olympus Has Fallen and London Has Fallen, every Marvel movie ever, San Andreas, the Hunger Games series, the Maze Runner series, the Marine, 12 Rounds 1 & 2, Red 1 & 2, The Fault In Our Stars, the Insidious series, Taken 1 & 2 (3 wasn't that good), White House Down, Paper Towns, the A- Team, Pitch Perfect 1 & 2, How Did We End Up Here (because 5sos), This is Us (because 1D), and TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES 1 & 2.

I like a LOT of action movies, as you can tell. Even though some of those aren't action movies. Oh, well.

~Maddie 💕