My First Crush

I'm Afraid..

I am afraid of what I might find.
I am afraid of the person I might find.
I am afraid, that if I do date, or hang out, with Bob, then he will be someone else.
I am afraid that Bob will be nothing like the person I thought he was.

I am afraid that I will lose him.
I am afraid to help my friend win him over.
I am afraid to stand by and watch her take him.
I am afraid to make a move.
I am afraid that there is nothing I can do.

I am afraid that there will be nothing between us.
I am afraid that no matter what I do, there will never be an "us."
I am afraid of what comes next.
I am afraid that I might lose interest.
I am afraid that one day, I will wake up, and he will be gone.

I am afraid if we are to opposite to work. I am afraid that we will never make it.
I am afraid that no matter what happens, it will be bad.
I am afraid of how this may turn out.
I am afraid, that I won't be able to be myself around him.

I am afraid that we will only be friends.
I am afraid to watch him get hurt by another.
I am afraid that he will ask me, what my friend is like.
I am afraid to be the middle man.
I am afraid of losing him.
I am afraid of losing my friend.
I am afraid, of losing me.
(My thoughts as I lie down in bed..)