When Playboy Falls (#Wattys2017)

Chapter 33: Kailan

Chapter 33: Kailan

"You are two weeks pregnant Ms. Santar. I advised you to take extra care of your pregnancy. Medyo maselan ang pagbubuntis dahil medyo mababa ang matris mo and to be honest, you're too young to bear a child." I smiled timidly. I know I'm too young for this. I didn't asked for this but since the baby is already at my tummy, then I'm willing to accept him or her. Kahit medyo biglaan at medyo mahirap tanggapin nung simula ay nakasisiguro akong mamahalin ko ang batang nasa sinapupunan ko.

"Thank you Doc." I said and then Nathan helped me to get out. Sinabi ko na ngang okay lang ako but he's still insisting to accompany me.

Pinauna nya akong pumasok sa sasakyan dahil sinabi nyang may babalikan pa raw sya sa loob na nakalimutan nya raw. Tumango na lang ako at tulalang naghintay sa kanya sa loob ng sasakyan.

I hold my tummy and then unconsciously, my tears begins falling but I just suppressed it because anytime soon, Nathan might come and I don't want him to see me in this situation.

"I'm so sorry baby. I'm sorry because I might not give you a complete family." right after that, Nathan came and he asked me if I'm just okay. I just nodded.

"Are you sure? Are you ill? Do you want to poke?" I shake my head and said that I'm just really okay.

Hindi naman na rin nangulit pa si Nathan after that.

Natulog lang ako sa buong duration ng biyahe. I'm still on the process. Nasa proseso pa rin ako ng pagtanggap sa isang napakalaking rebelasyon sa araw na ito.

"We're here." Nathan tapped my left cheek to awake me. Tumango lang ako at agad na ring tumayo.

"Maraming salamat Nate. Thank you sa pagsama sa'kin." I told him. Hindi ko alam pero hiyang-hiya talaga ako sa kanya. Alam kong nasasaktan ko sya pero heto at sya ang kasama ko. He even agreed when I told him to accompanied me on the check-up since Christine is busy.

And Dave? Oh, please, don't ask me about him. I don't have any idea about his whereabouts. Almost three weeks na syang hindi umuuwi. Ano pa bang aasahan ko? I'm sure, he's still busy finding Rian. Or, maybe he already found her and they're together now. I don't know and I don't want to think about it anymore.

Nathan just nodded and then he immediately turn his back against me. I watched him left. I know that he's hurting but still here I am, bugging him. Hindi ko man lang bigyan ng sapat na space at time 'yong tao para maka-move on. Kasi naman.. he's all that I have now.

I know that I might appear bad since I'm taking Nathan for granted. But.. I really need him. And.. I don't know. Deep within me, I know that I don't want Nate to move-on from me. I like the feeling of having someone in times like this and also, I like the attention. I am really in need of attention. And Nathan is there to give me that. But.. I'm not really taking him for granted. I just want him by my side because he makes me.. happy and feel loved.

I went inside and found out that the door's open.

"Oh my," I'm afraid that someone went inside. Baka mamaya kasi ay mga magnanakaw pala ang mga nakapasok sa loob. Paano na lang?

Bukas din ang mga ilaw sa loob at may nakita rin akong pares ng sapatos. My heart skipped.

Is he..

Kaagad akong nagtungo sa kwarto nya na syang tinutulugan ko this past few days. And there, I found him. He's sleeping and he look like a mess.

I sit at the edge of the bed. I tousled his hair but he's still sleeping peacefully. I bet, he's really tired.

I sighed. Sobrang gulo ng buhay ko. Why all of these happened? Am I that bad?

As I scan his handsome face, I saw some bruises on it. Iyong iba ay parang bago pa, samantalang iyong iba naman ay mukhang malaki talaga dati tapos lumiit lang dahil pagaling na. I caressed his face. I can't help staring at him. I missed him.