~Poems~

The Things I Wish I Knew

Have I ever known safety's name?

It feels like she's so out of reach, from the perspective of a life on the floor

Nowadays I seem to have forgotten happiness' voice

No matter how hard I try, I can't recall how the sound of her singing sounded

Her harmonies are simply lost to me

Was I ever friends with mental stability?

The name rolls comfortably on my tongue, but I can't remember if I have met him

Was he like everyone else and abandoned me too fast for me to even process it?

I know for a fact that confidence and I never got along

So she left me without even glancing a second time

For so long now, I have tried to reach control

I call them, but no answer on the other line

Ever

How is the taste that all those people everyone loves know?

I wish I could know, to get a small sample, even if the tiniest

Can someone please tell safety that I want to get to know her?

Could someone please teach me those songs happiness always sings and how her voice sounds?

Please tell mental stability that I would like to be friends

Can someone ask why confidence despises me so, and if she could give me a second chance?

Tell control that I'm still trying to call them, because I get no answer

Please let me now how being loved tastes like

All I have is the despair that with an iron grip, holds my throat and makes surviving a difficult task

Addiction is completely tied around my ankles, holding on together with fatigue

My fears are clingy, unlike control, they never stop calling me

As insecurities gnaw on my every bone, pessimism clings onto my shoulders and gives me a strange posture

Maybe this is simply all I'll ever know