~Poems~

The Soil

Go back, fall back, return once again

My filthy mind is covered in a soil that will never wash away

I scrub and scrub

Words and expressions carry too much meaning for my brittle, filthy mind

It's all just symbols, vibrations in the air and muscles clenching and relaxing

I'm falling back once again

I have a head that can't forget

Falling back, just throw me in the soil I was born in

Every sound an alarm then paired with the warning flags I see in every person

All of them are red, the angriest and most furious red

I can never forget, just let me forget

Fear takes over and holds a steady grip around me

Can't you see the shattered glass inside my eyes?

All of the signs are here

Falling back and coming back to the soil that I've tried to get away from

I thought that maybe I was beginning to get clean again

You have to understand that this world is dangerous and people will only crush you

Tears are swelling up my eyes as the memories flood back in

I despise you all for pushing me into the soil

There was never a version of myself before everything

I was born and raised in the soil then the day came and I realized everyone else was clean

Let's just be done with it and go back, fall back and return