~Poems~

Connection

So far away.

I can only get a simple glance from you.

I want to scream at you.
I don't know!

Things are happening in my mind.

I hate you.

Your armor continue like before.

Nothing has happened.

I demand.

You dismiss.

I can feel such an absence from you.

But I believe you do too.

I reach with the arms of my soul.

But you're still so far away.

We're meant to be connected.

But you back away.

My control slip away from my own fingers.

Running like sand and falling down like water.

My shout must be heard now, so loud.

But you're deaf and blind to my tries.

The proud armor of yours is shining in the right ways by the sun.

Hiding myself inside.

I'm an moon when you're the planet.

I want to connect but I know the crash will be too hard.

Show emotions, whatever those are.

Because my soul demands you copying me.

But you don't even flinch.

Continuing the everyday charade that is meant for masking.

Rip off the mask, my voice, breaking of frustration, screams.

Once again, you dismiss.

Reach to me, please.

Listen to the things I have to say.

Rip off the mask and shout the truth that no one knows.

I stare at you and realize that's not me.

You're someone else.

You walk the direction I have never been in.

Or have I?

My confused soul demands an explanation.

But once again, you don't even look me in the eyes.

I want to feel your connection again.

But you're too far away.

Come back into my tired arms.

Tell me your secrets.

Tell me something that makes me know, that you're aware of me.

Let us hug once again, like you're meant to.

And feel a connection.

You're standing so far away and without any signs of hesitation, walk away from me.
Come back!

You're mine!

No, you're not.

On the ground, a rope lies.

You dropped it in front of me.

Our rope of connection.

I throw it at your direction and beg for you to feel its presence.

My way of telling you what I want.
I wanna be gone!

You know what to do.

Take the rope.

Maybe at the end, I could finally feel the connection between us.

You keep walking.

But I see that you want to go too.

We need each other, don't you realize?

Without me, you don't know what to do.

Without you, I don't know how to do all those things.

Come back and reach to me, please.

No connection.