~Poems~

Today I Feel Heavy

Today I feel heavy

Muddy hues of grey has replaced all colours

Can't leave my bed because gravity has a hold on me and I fear that I'll collapse the second my feet hit the ground

The void is nibbling on my sorry bones

Filling my head up with concrete and insecurities

Today I feel so heavy

I've found the most silent place on earth and it resides inside my chest

My heart isn't even beating anymore

This skin wrapping over my bones is the only thing keeping me together because I can promise you that my insides are made of glass

And now it has all shattered

There's a dull, pulsating pain that runs through my collapsed glass veins

Like a warning thunder but without any lightning

Growling in the background

I feel so damn heavy it's a miracle I haven't fallen straight through earth and come out on the other side

Nothing feels real and nothing carries meaning

Because no matter the lengths that we walk

We'll all collapse in exhaustion one day and our footsteps will be wiped away by time

The laughter will always eventually subside

Hey

Today I feel heavy