𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐖𝐍 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐒 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒

before she left

SHAWN MENDES IMAGINES
→ before she left ←

Hey, I know it's been a while. I miss you. More than you, could ever know. And the truth is, I still love you

We were never meant to be, you shattered my heart and even if you tried, you could never repair whats been broken because there would still be damage left

I need you in my arms. I need to hear you whisper those three words we always said to each other. I need you to make me feel something. Because without you I'm empty inside.

I will always love you. But I can't keep holding on to something that keeps hurting me.

I love you so fucking much, princess

It's hard, Shawn. Hard not being with you. But it's for the best. You broke me. And I'm doing something to make me feel better and happy.

I can make you happy... please give me another chance. I'll prove to you that you are my entire world and I'll do anything to make it up to you, please, just let me hold you again.

Nothing will ever be the same. You hurt me. You broke me. You will never fix me no matter how hard you try. I need to learn to fix myself by forgetting about you: us

If I can't have you then let me hold you one last time. Let me have your lips against mine one last time. Let me love you before you go.

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She stood on his porch late at night. The cold winter air breeze made her shiver, as she stayed put on the porch wondering if it was a good idea or not.

Lifting her hand, she knocked on the door softly. The door slowly opened and there he stood. Bloodshot, red eyes and tears dripping down his cheeks.

Her breathing hitched and his eyes widened. "You can love me before I go." Her voice was gentle.

His heart raced and he could almost guarantee that it would burst any second. He was relieved to see her again for one last time. But he knew it would be hard to let her go again. He truly loves her and even though he didn't want to let her go, he knew that's what she wanted. What she needed.

"You can have my lips one last time." She whispered, letting one tear escape from her eyes. He stared at her with guilt and sorrow and love.

He was a mess. He knew breaking her was the worst mistake he had ever made in his entire life. He needed to fix everything before it was too late. But time had ran out. It was too late for him to fix things.

She still had him tied around her finger tips but she managed to escape from his finger tips. He lost her but she didn't lose him. And she didn't know that.

He let out a cry as she spoke again, "y-you can love me, one l-last time."

Her lip quivered and her body trembled.

He gently wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into his embrace. She closed her eyes as she pressed her head against his chest, hearing his heart thump in a steady rhythm. Her hands gripped onto his hoodie. It was hard on the both of them to end what they had, especially when their love for each other was still powerful.

She picked her head up and looked him in the eyes. She watched as he bit down on his bottom lip, holding back a sob.

He darted his gaze down on her. His eyes flickered between her eyes and her lips. The both of them leaned in, ready to share the most meaningful kiss they've had. Although they had really meaningful kisses, this one was different than any other one they've had. Both of their feelings and emotions all over the place, the both of them broken but still loving each other before letting go.

This was it. Their lips met and moved in sync. Tears slipped from their closed eyes as they kissed with a bit of force, letting the other know their love for them.

She pulled away but kept her forehead against his, rubbing his cheek with the pad of her thumb.

He couldn't hold it in anymore. He broke down and drop to his knees in front of her small body, begging her not to leave. He couldn't stand his life without her.

She broke out in sobs as well, not being able to stand him being so hurt. So broken. She began to overthink. Maybe she didn't give him enough chances. She thought only one chance was enough for him. But she was afraid of being hurt again. She couldn't give him another chance. Not for a while.

"I love you." She whispered, kissing his forehead.

He watched as she walked away, leaving him on his knees. He'd stop begging for her to stay. He sat there not caring about the cold air. He couldn't move. This feeling in the pit of his stomach made him feel sick.

One thing was left on his mind which he was a bit grateful for.

At least before she left, they shared love one last time.

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OKAY I KNOW I HAVE NOT UPDATED IN A SHIT TON OF YEARS BUT YOUR MAIN BITCH IS BACK IN DA HOUSE YO

i am gunna be fuckin' honest with ya, i really really really love this one so much can y'all believe i made this depressing imagine? no? yes? I don't care lolol jk

But it's break for me and I'll try and do more updates because I came up w good ass ideas in the shower since that's where I think the most LMFAO

anyway if you want to request anything just message me n ya

-maya