Wanted (A Restless Road Fanfiction)

Holding Back

CHAPTER 11

Holding Back

"Don't be afraid to love with all your heart, because you never lose by loving, you lose by holding back." ~Barbara de Angelis

Seriously, Katie?! That was like the worst thing I could've said. He was silent. "Sorry, that was stupid," I said, and turned around to go back in my room.

"No, it was cute," Zach said, smiling. I just looked down. "Hey," he said, and tilted my chin up to look at him. He started leaning in, but I pulled away.

"I'm sorry," I said. "I just can't." I watched him walk to the end of the hallway, then turned around and shut the door.

I sat down on my bed. Why did I keep holding back? I really, really liked Zach. I wanted to be with him. I just don't know why I kept doing this to every guy.

The next day, I just hung out in my hotel room. I didn't talk to Zach, Colton, or Andrew. I was confused, and I was embarrassed of what happened with Zach. So, it was pretty boring. Tomorrow we would start rehearsals. We had 2 weeks, and then we would start the tour, which would last 6 months. I had to admit, I was pretty excited.

I got up the next morning and got ready for choreography and rehearsals. I just put on sweats since I'd be moving around a lot. I walked outside and saw John's car, so I walked over to it and got in.

"Hey, you ready?" he asked.

"Yep," I said. He drove us to the studio where I'd be rehearsing at.

"I'll pick you up when rehearsals end, so at 5. See you then." I got out of the car and walked inside. I didn't want to see Zach. It was going to be so awkward.

"Hey, Katie. I'm Lindsey. I'm your choreographer," I heard. I turned around and saw a girl a little older than me.

"We'll be in this room," she said, pointing to a room next to us. "You'll just be alone for this week, except for lunch breaks. You'll start rehearsing with Restless Road next week."

"Okay," I said, and walked into the room. I had already decided the 6 songs I was singing, but they gave me the setlist. I was singing five of my own songs, and then I was singing "Wanted", since that was the song that started it all. I was singing 4 upbeat songs with a lot of choreography, and then 2 slow songs. Each upbeat song would take one day to learn, and the last day would be devoted to the two slow songs.

Basically, the first half of the day would be learning the moves. After lunch, I would try speeding them up, and then trying to do it while singing.

Today I was rehearing my song called "Your Love". I learned the moves, and mastered the song. I went home at 5 feeling great. I didn't see Zach today since I ate lunch with Lindsey. Should I text him? I sighed, unsure.

Me: Hey:) Just wanted to know how rehearsals went for you...

Zach: Great, you?

Me: Awesome.

Zach: :D

Well, at least he wasn't mad at me. And now it wouldn't be totally awkward the next time I saw him. I plugged my phone into the charger and went to sleep. I guess right now, things were okay.