Tell Me A Lie In A Beautiful Way (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 37

Kat's POV

"Kat." Matt called from the other room. "I'm going."

"Eh." I grunted, more to myself than him.

"Did you hear me?" He asked, peering in the door at me.

I nodded and sat up. "Yep, you're going."

He frowned at me. "Are you okay?" He asked me.

"Yes." I sighed standing up. "Just a little homesick." And that wasn't entirely a lie, I was missing home.

"Okay." He said holding out his arm's. I stepped into them and he pulled me to his chest. "Not long and we'll be in Canada and then home."

"I know." I murmured.

"Okay." He said kissing the top of my head. "So you and Dani are coming down later?"

I nodded looking up at him. "Yep we'll be down in an hour or so."

"Good." He said kissing me. "I'll see you then."

I smiled, watching him leave and as soon as the door shut I sat back down on the bed.

Here we were in France and yes I was homesick, but I had other things on my mind, big things and now I had to go and find a pharmacy, in a foreign country and get a pregnancy test.

I was pretty sure I was pregnant. I don't know how it happened, well I mean I do, but I was on the pill, but somewhere along the way it had failed and now here I was.

I was worried about what Matt would say. We'd never discussed children, at all. Yes we were married but we had just never talked about it.

"Fuck I'm stupid." I mumbled to myself, standing up and grabbing my purse.

I was fucking stupid. I had rushed into marriage with Matt. Yes I loved him, but fuck, it was things like this, things like having children that we should have discussed. What if he didn't want kids? I wanted kids, I'd always dreamed of having at least two, but what if he didn't?

"Don't get ahead of yourself." I mumbled to myself, making my way to the door and out to the elevator.

I knew I could probably get a test at the hotel but I didn't want to risk being seen by anyone. If I was pregnant I'd already decided that I would keep it to myself until after the tour. Matt already had enough to worry about without me adding a pregnancy to it.

I made my way downstairs and out into the street, walking around until I found a pharmacy. I hated it here in France. The people were rude and now I had to go into this place and try and explain what I needed.

I went inside and looked around, breathing a sigh of relief when I found the tests on a shelf. It would seem I wouldn't have to make an ass of myself after all.

I paid for it with minimal interaction then I shoved it in my purse, making my way back to the hotel.

I needed to hurry. Dani would be by soon so we could make our way down to the venue for tonight's show, so as soon as I walked in the door, I pulled out the box, reading the instructions.

I nodded, walking into the bathroom. It seemed pretty easy, so I peed on the stick and sat it on the bathroom cabinet while I finished getting ready.

After five minutes my phone went off and I walked in, grabbing the stick.

"Nice." I whispered, staring at it. "You're up the duff." And it really wasn't a surprise to me, I'd been feeling like crap for a few weeks and my boobs, god they were so sore.

I cleaned up, hiding it in the rubbish so Matt wouldn't see it, then made my way downstairs to meet up with Dani.

I was pregnant and I would keep it to myself for now. Once we were home we could sit down and talk about it, until then it was my little secret.

"Hey." Dani said smiling at me as I approached her. "Are you okay?" And she frowned at me.

I shrugged. "Just tired." I mumbled, and nauseated and pregnant, but I left those things out.

"God yes." She said as we walked outside to the waiting car. "I never knew this touring would take so much out of you."

"It's kind of exhausting." I said as we climbed into the car.

"Very." She said, getting settled as the car drove us to the venue.

Once we arrived we made our way backstage where there were a million people, all rushing around. At first it had all overwhelmed me, now I was used to it.

"Here she is." Brian called, rushing over to Dani and kissing her rather passionately.

I ignored them and looked around for somewhere to put my ass. It wasn't like Matt would acknowledge my presence anyway. He always insisted I came to every damn show, but whenever I did, the most I got out of him was a smile and a wave and occasionally a few words. There were no embraces, no kisses before he went on stage and as I sat here, my mood already down, I wondered why the fuck he insisted I came on this stupid tour.

I sat there looking around when Matt came into view. It was almost time for them to go on and he was looking all serious.

I watched him look around until his eye's met mine and then he smiled, well sort of, so I sort of smiled back and he raised his eyebrow's at me.

I didn't care, I was just a little bit tired and a little bit over it and I really was looking forward to going home.

Once Brian and Dani had finished making out, Dani made her way over to me, sitting down and together we watched the show.

It was a great show, it always was and I was proud of Matt. He was so good at what he did and I was proud that he was my husband. He might be a pain in my ass but he was my husband and I adored him.

After the show finished and all the after show shit was done, everyone gathered, ready to go to the end of tour party.

"I think I'll give it a miss." I told Matt as we walked out to the car together.

"What?" He asked, opening the door as I climbed in.

"The party." I told him, watching him climb in next to me.

He frowned, looking at me. "Are you okay Kat?" He asked me softly.

"Yeah." I said softly. "I'm just really tired and I'm not feeling the best."

"Okay." He murmured, reaching over and squeezing my hand.

The car dropped him off at the party first and as he got out, he turned, kissing my cheek. "I'll miss you baby." He murmured, climbing out.

As the car drove away I felt like crying. He could be so cold, and then he could be so damn sweet.

I went back to the hotel and climbed into bed, laying in the dark thinking. Matt and I were going to have a baby and I realised that I wanted this baby whether he did or not.

I eventually drifted off to sleep and woke up when Matt stumbled in at about 3am. I laid there smiling to myself as I listened to him get undressed and climb into bed.

"On a dark desert highway." He sung softly, wrapping his arm's around me. "Cool wind in my hair."

"Shh." I murmured, closing my eye's and snuggling up to him.

"I love you Kat." He murmured, kissing my forehead.

"And I love you."