Tell Me A Lie In A Beautiful Way (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 56

Matt's POV

"You almost ready?" Zack asked, knocking on the door and walking in.

I closed my suitcase, sighing. "Sure am."

"Well let's go." He said turning to the door. "My shit is already downstairs."

I grabbed my bag, following him to the elevator. We were heading back home, back home to the girls, well at least I hoped back to Kat. I'd tried calling her, but she didn't answer or return my call and right now I was feeling a little pissed off and whole lot shit about the whole thing.

The elevator opened and I inwardly groaned, seeing Dani standing there.

"Where are you off too?" She asked me, smirking.

"You know where I'm going." I muttered, walking to the doors.

"Home?" She asked, following me. "What makes you think Kat is at home?"

I turned and looked at her. "I don't know where she fucking is Dani, okay." I snapped. "She won't answer my fucking calls and frankly, right now, I don't give a fuck where she is."

I walked to the taxi, throwing my bags in the trunk and getting in, avoiding Dani's eye's.

Why the fuck would I say that? Of course I cared where she was, that's why I was going home, to find her. But why did I have to pretend I didn't care?

Zack got in the taxi with me and we sat silently on the drive to the airport and basically remained silent all the way home. Well almost.

"Hey." Zack said softly half way through the flight. "Do you think Kat will know where Dez is?"

I nodded. "Yeah I'm sure she will, I'll get her to tell me."

"Dez probably told her not to." He said quietly.

"Well." I snapped. "I'll fucking make her."

Zack frowned at me and then went back to staring at nothing.

Hopefully Kat would tell me where Dez was, but right now that was the least of my problems. Now I just wanted to get home to my wife and apologise. I owed her the biggest apology of my life and I only hoped she listened.

We finally landed and grabbed our luggage, getting into different taxi's.

"I'll call you later." Zack told me and I just nodded.

I had to much on my mind to reply. Kat. She was all I could think about right now.

I stared out the window as the taxi drove towards home, and as it pulled up out the front I took a deep breath, grabbing my bags.

I walked up the path, feeling a tightness in my chest. I was looking for signs of Kat being home, but I couldn't see any and as I put the key in the door my chest tightened more, making it hard to breath.

I unlocked the door and stepped inside, putting my bag down and listening.

"Kat?" I called, my voice echoing. "I'm home."

Nothing. There was absolutely nothing. No reply, no sound. She wasn't here.

I dragged my bags into our room, looking around, looking for any sign that she'd been here but I couldn't see any, well until I opened our closet.

"Fuck." I whispered, staring at the empty space where her clothes used to hang. "Fuck Kat."

I walked into the bathroom, grabbing her makeup drawer. If her make up was still here I knew she'd be back, but I opened it and groaned, it was empty.

"Fuck." I snapped, walking back into the bedroom and grabbing my phone.

I dialled her number and stood there, listening to it ring.

Hey this is Kat, leave a message and I might call you back.

Fuck, her voice sounded perfect and I realised I missed it, I missed her.

"It's me." I snapped into the phone. "I just got home and find all of your stuff is gone. So what? You've left me? Nice one Kat."

I hung up and threw the phone on the bed, sitting down and looking around.

The house felt weird and it felt wrong without Kat in it. There was no way I could stay here, no way at all.

Fuck, the house felt so empty.

I looked at my bag's. I wasn't unpacking them, I would find somewhere else to stay. I just couldn't stay here.

I sat on the bed, wondering where the fuck I could go when a knock at the door interrupted me.

I got up to answer it, my heart in my chest. Maybe it was Kat? Maybe she was coming home?

"Hey." Zack mumbled, walking in. "Did she tell you?"

"Well." I mumbled. "She's not even here, so no."

He frowned, looking at me. "Not here?"

"Apparently she left me." I snapped. "Thank fuck."

"Oh." Zack mumbled, looking uncomfortable.

"Yeah so." I said. "I'm going to stay at your place, you know, so it's easier to find them."

"Um yeah sure." Zack muttered, still frowning.

"Yeah I'll just grab some stuff." I mumbled, grabbing my unpacked bag and dragging it out.

I glanced around and spied Kat's Ipad sitting on the coffee table. That was odd, she never went anywhere without it.

"I'm taking this." I snapped, shoving it in her bag. "Fuck her, I hope she comes looking for it."

I locked up and threw my bags into my car while Zack got in his, heading towards his place.

I found myself driving slow, looking at the people on the sidewalks, hoping I saw Kat, praying I would see Kat.

Zack was already home by the time I got there and I walked in, dumping my bags in the spare room before heading to the fridge.

I need a beer and I didn't care what the fucking time was.

Zack grabbed one as well, opening it and collapsing on the couch across from me.

"So." I said taking a long drink. "How the hell are we going to find them?"

Zack frowned at me. "You want to find her?" He asked.

"Well yeah." I muttered. "Why wouldn't I?"

"Why wouldn't you." Zack snapped, sitting up. "Maybe because you act like you don't give a fuck about her Matt, that's why."

"Bullshit." I mumbled.

"You do." He snapped. "You act like you're glad she left, but I know you're not, you're not glad, you're hurt, you just act like you aren't." He went on. "Don't you love her?"

I sighed. "Of course I do." I said softly. "She's my fucking wife."

"Well for fuck sake Matt." Zack snapped. "Act like it. Find her, tell her, beg her to fucking forgive you and fuck, tell her you love her every fucking day."

I nodded, he was right of course. "What the fuck is wrong with me?" I said softly, looking at him. "She's my fucking life, why can't I act like it?"

Zack shrugged. "I don't know Matt." He said. "But now's a good as time as any to start."

I nodded, laying back and closing my eye's.

He was right of course. Kat was my life, she was my everything and it was really about time I acted like it.