Tell Me A Lie In A Beautiful Way (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 55

Kat's POV

I was pretty quiet on the flight back to California, but then again so was Dez. I guess we both had a lot on our minds. I'd left my husband, I'd actually left him and now here I was, flying away from him, pregnant with his child.

"You okay?" Dez asked me softly.

I looked at her nodded. I couldn't answer her because honestly I wasn't okay, not at all.

The plane finally landed and we collected our luggage, catching a taxi to Dez's house.

"It's messy." She told me as she let us in. "I haven't finished unpacking."

"Well that will give us something to keep us busy." I said softly as she showed me the room I'd be staying in. "We can get this house organised."

She nodded, smiling sadly. "Yeah we can." She said. "Now I need a shower."

"Me too." I told her. "Then I guess I should go to the house and get my stuff."

I swallowed the lump in my throat. Getting my stuff from the house seemed so final.

"Sure." She said squeezing my arm. "Let's freshen up, then we can drive over."

I sat on the bed and cried softly while Dez showered, looking at my phone. He hadn't even called or messaged, obviously he didn't give a fuck I'd left. But I wasn't surprised, I hadn't expected him to care.

"Your turn." Dez called as she came out and I gathered my clothes, going into the bathroom.

I undressed and looked at myself in the mirror. I was pregnant and I guessed my body was going to start changing. I looked at myself, but right now I still looked the same.

"God." I whispered turning on the shower.

I was pregnant and I was going to be a single mother. That thought made me start crying again so I stood in the shower trying to cry it all out and eventually I stopped. For now anyway.

"Ready?" Dez asked coming into my room as I pulled my hair back into a messy bun.

"Yep." I said trying to sound strong.

I could do this. Matt didn't deserve me and I was going to be strong.

I directed Dez to our house and as we pulled into the drive I felt that lump in my throat again. This was my home and here I was packing up my stuff.

I let us in and I made my way to our bedroom, grabbing a bag and packing some clothes, trying not to look at anything.

"This place is nice." Dez called out from the kitchen. She was looking around while I packed.

"Yeah it is." I whispered, quickly wiping away a tear that had escaped.

"Need help?" She asked appearing in the doorway.

"Um." I mumbled hiding my face and zipping up the suitcase. "You can take this to the car while I look around and see if there's anything else I want."

"Sure thing." She said smiling and taking my bag.

While she did that I made my way into the bathroom, grabbing a few things before heading into the living room and looking around.

"Want this?" Dez asked, picking up my Ipad.

I shook my head. "Nope."

"Why not?" She asked frowning.

"I'll tell you why." I said softly taking it off her and opening tumblr. "See." I said holding it out to her, showing her my hate page.

She was the first person I'd ever told about that page and as she read I watched her face grow darker.

"What the fuck?" She snapped, looking at me. "How the fuck do they already know you left him?"

I shrugged. "They know everything." I whispered.

"Fuck that." She snapped putting the Ipad back onto the coffee table. "Leave it here."

I watched her walk over, looking at some photo's. "Want any of these?" She asked, indicating to them.

"Nah." I mumbled.

She picked one up, inspecting it. "Is this your wedding day?" She asked, holding it out to me.

I took the photo looking at it. I looked so fucking happy in it. "Yeah it is."

"Well." She said looking at me. "What was it like? Where did you get married."

"We got married in Vegas." I told her, still looking at the picture.

"Seriously?" She asked.

I nodded. "Yeah, we eloped." I explained. "At the time I thought it was damn romantic, but now."

"Now what?" She asked frowning.

"Now I realise he did it because he was embarrassed." I whispered.

Dez grabbed the picture off me, placing it back where it belonged. "Rubbish Kat." She said softly. "He wasn't embarrassed and right now I bet he's feeling pretty fucking low."

I laughed sarcastically. "Yeah real low Dez." I told her. "He hasn't even bothered to call, probably doesn't even know I left."

"Kat." She said softly, hugging me. "Why the fuck would you think he's embarrassed by you?"

"Please." I said. "You've seen the way he acts." I told her. "And besides, someone told me he only married me to clean up his image." I didn't mention names, just saying that bitches name left a dirty taste in my mouth.

"Who?" She snapped. "Who the fuck would say that?"

I shrugged. "Doesn't matter, the fact is I think it's true, I'm just pissed that it took me so long to realise it."

Dez looked at me and laughed. SHE LAUGHED. "Kat." She said smiling. "You're pregnant with his child so I'm pretty sure he loves you."

I snorted. "No, I was there I guess so he slept with me."

"Oh Kat." Dez said softly. "You silly girl." She grabbed my hand, leading me to the door. "Let's just go."

I nodded, locking up the house and silently getting in the car, thinking as Dez drove us home.

"Kat." Dez said as she drove. "He does love you."

I shrugged. "I don't know." I said softly.

"Kat." She said reaching over and squeezing my hand. "I've been around you guy's for a few weeks."

"Yeah so you see how he is." I told her. "An asshole."

She laughed. "Yeah he acts like a dick when he's around everyone." She agreed. "But Kat, when he thinks no one is watching I see the way he looks at you."

I shook my head. "No."

"Oh yeah." She giggled. "He looks at you with the dumbest look in his face Kat, it's total adoration, he loves you girl, he really does."

I sighed, looking out the window.

If he loved me why the hell hadn't he called?