"I have never missed our anniversary.
But yesterday, my mind was scrambled.
So I took my day to tame the storm
That had quickly become so ornery.
I think I finally collected them.
It makes a little sense, at least.
I feel calmer having accepted the fact
That there is nothing more to mend.
I cannot find any more energy
To channel towards hating you.
There's no more fight left in my heart.
And if anything, I'm filled with lethargy.
But I can say one thing for certain.
I forgive you, I love you, and I'm sorry.
We both have made mistakes,
But still I will forever love our rose garden.
I will move on and fall in love some day.
Today is not the day that I will make that happen.
Today is the day when I remember us.
And think that eventually I'll go to another place.
I will stand in the rain and be deeply frozen.
And think about how much I loved you.
I will think about the time we had together,
And I will let my life ahead be chosen.
But I need to make sure you know,
Because right now I'm not sure.
I love you and I could never hate you.
Even if I have a shit way of letting that show."
-c. e.
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