I could feel it in your soul as I started to walk away.
You were scared to death.
Everything was about to change.
You knew that this time, you couldn't make me stay.
Tears stained my eyes as I tried to wipe them away.
We both knew that this was for the best.
But you were determined not to settle for less.
I thought I left you in the past and I was able to move on.
But you crept back in so quietly,
as if you were never even gone.
You held me down once before and your grip was tight and clever.
I fought back towards the end but it seemed to go on forever.
Now here you are once again like you're too weak to give me closure.
Like the pain caused by your manipulation, I fear that this will never be over.
I'm drinking like an alcoholic and smoking 2 packs a day.
Anything I can find to make the stinging of your voice finally dissipate.
Why can't you just let me go without taking what's still left of me?
Regret is such a pathetic word but it's where I'd rather be.
I can't handle being your prisoner again.
This time is different because I know you're not my friend.
I'm not going back to a life of hatred and fear.
I'll never be that girl again.
I don't fucking need you here!
I won't look in the mirror.
I won't feel my skin.
I won't let you get the best of me.
I won't let you win!
It's time to say goodbye for good.
Because this time, you're not getting in.
This time I see you for who you truly are.
You're just the demon I created.
You're just a cut that needs to scar.
But no matter who you try to be,
You're not me anymore.
YOU ARE READING
One Thousand Tears
PoetryI've tried to release this pain in so many different ways; But writing about you seems to be one of my faves. I don't understand how I find closure When I know it only lasts until the poem is over. Somehow it feels like some sort of imaginary reli...
