We're tearing us apart again,
But this time I'm the one to blame.
Tell your family and all of your friends
how much you really needed them.
Maybe we wouldn't be in this disaster
If they had opened their eyes just a little bit faster.
No one wanted to see reality.
Calling their excuses a "technicality."
I never expected to be the one,
that would say goodbye while refusing to run.
In the beginning I was hopeless.
You did something to me that made me feel broken.
I only wanted to put my heart back together.
I didn't know then, that "temporarily" would mean forever.
What you did to me was far from love.
There's no excuse for what we've become.
You try so hard to make me believe, that it's all in the past and it shouldn't mean anything.
But the past never got a chance to be removed from the present.
I think we both know, that's because you won't let it.
You pretend that we're okay now and finally moving on.
I'll never really understand how you can be so oblivious to where it all went wrong.
You never stopped making the mistakes that got us here today.
You just slowed them down for awhile until everything felt safe.
You're blind to the reality that I've fallen prey to a disease that's slowly killing me.
You refuse to see what you've done to me because you can't accept responsibility.
Pretending that I'm recovered because it helps you sleep at night.
But does the fantasy ever go away when you open up your eyes?
Just because you've finally pulled me in to the darkness with you,
Doesn't mean I'll suddenly forget all the torture that you put me through.
Now we're both dying together in secret and I don't know how to fight anymore.
You can blame it on being addicted but you didn't have to choose that door.
We're killing each other day by day and I'm afraid that it's too late.
Instead of loving me back to health,
You pulled me back down in to your hell.
Now I'm terrified that time will tell.
By then we'll be so far beyond help.
I don't know how I let you do this to me or why I ever stayed.
It's just proof of how much you truly never cared about me in the first place.
We're tearing us apart again
But this time I'm afraid...
YOU ARE READING
One Thousand Tears
PoetryI've tried to release this pain in so many different ways; But writing about you seems to be one of my faves. I don't understand how I find closure When I know it only lasts until the poem is over. Somehow it feels like some sort of imaginary reli...
