One Thousand Tears

We Tried

You said that you were happy,
Even though this felt like hell.
I could see it in your eyes that you'd rather be somewhere else.
We tried too hard to make this work.
We pretended for too long like it didn't hurt.
Your words are saying one thing,
While your actions sing another tune.
Why are you still pretending as if none of it was ever true?
It's killing me inside but your acting like it never affected you.
How can you not see by now that you let it take the best of you?
While you were dancing with the devil and pretending he's your friend,
I was watching from the sidelines until you pulled me in.
You saw the pain behind my eyes from the damage caused by sin.
You took what was left of me and gave it all to him.
Now we're falling apart from choices that destroyed our hearts.
Mistakes that we pretended to forgive have caused us both to lose our grip.
We both let go and fell in separate directions.
With permanent scars from desperate intentions.
What's left of us now is highly toxic.
The more you try to make excuses for it,
Only makes me realize how long ago we lost it.
I hope you feel the tears in my eyes as these words tear me apart.
You used to put me back together,
I loved you with all of my heart.
There's no point in fighting any longer.
We're killing each other instead of getting stronger.
Please don't apologize.
What's left of my heart can't handle any more of your lies.
You tore me apart enough already.
I can't even look in your eyes without my heart getting heavy.
This must be what it feels like to drown.
I struggle to breathe, while you're holding me down.
We've spent enough time living this lie.
Pretending that we believe we'll be fine.
It's time to stop killing each other and save our own lives.
Hollow hearts can't love, but we tried.