One Thousand Tears

Disasters Occur When Hearts Collide

I don't know when it all went wrong.
But it hasn't been right in way too long.

I don't know if I'll ever get over the pain.

Haunted by memories that made me insane.

Now I don't know how to feel because I'll never feel the same.

I know that we both took part in screwing us over,
But I thought that we were getting stronger while we were getting closure.

We had been doing great, in fact, better than ever.

So why'd you have to pick then,
to get your revenge and start a new game all over again?

I couldn't have hurt you that bad,
if you were willing to hurt me even worse.

You saw me drowning in tears but didn't care that I was hurt.

You took my wounds and burried them in dirt.

You were so caught up in your own little demise,

You failed to see the agony that I was keeping inside.

I was so in love with you,

I was willing to do more than you would ever do, if you were me and I was you.

I tried to hide how bad I needed you.

I had to cover up the pain.

I couldn't let anyone know because then I'd have to explain.

I was ashamed for you and scared for me.

You didn't even care when I threatened to leave.

I could've walked away and never looked back.

But I chose to stay in an attempt to fix the life we used to have.

Even when I thought that it would never get any better than this now.

Even when the doctors all told me that my body has started shutting down.

Even when I knew that I was gonna die,
and I'd never be able to tell anyone why.

Even when I knew that we were in too deep to ever be fixed.

I stood by your side because I missed it.

I got help for what you made me see in myself,

But I still go through hell just trying to see myself.

You took the only thing inside of me that she was ever able to destroy.

You killed the little amount of light that allowed me to feel any joy.

I didn't think anyone could hurt me more than I've already endured.

I've been ruined inside too many times throughout my life.

Yet, Somehow you've managed to stab my heart with a much bigger knife.

Now I'm always miserable,
even when I'm not.

I'll never be the same person I was,
Before you called all the shots.

You never wanted this from the beginning.

You've made it very clear that lying is winning.

Now you treat me like the mistake that you were too young to make.

How can my heart still continue to break?

I can see it in your eyes when you look right through me.

I still wanted to try but your heart outgrew me.

It was obvious enough that you regretted some decisions.

And it wasn't us that needed to be forgiven.

But you were never good at talking and I was getting tired of giving in.

This thing that we've become has taken so many turns.

I almost forget which version of you I hate worse and it hurts.

I don't know when it all went wrong,
But I've been destroying myself inside, way too long.

I don't wanna be your option anymore.

If you were really scared of losing me,
It would be harder for you to ignore.

I hope you know when it all went wrong.
'Cause if I walk away this time, baby,

I'm gone...