Love Me, Kill Me (Book 1 - Guardians Series)

LMKM 14 - Closure

Claus' POV

(A.N. yes, may POV si Claus, ayan bawi na po ako sa mga ClausRine wahehe)

"Closure. Ganun na lang ba talaga sweetheart?" mapait kong sabi.

"That's all I want right now. No more, no less, and drop the 'sweetheart' please," she coldly said.

"Alright then, hear me out," sabi ko.

At least she is calmly listening to me right now. I couldn't ask for more.

"Katherine, Victoria and I never had an affair," panimula ko.

"Maybe we have different definitions for affair then," she flatly said.

"Sweetheart believe me. I didn't touch her, didn't kiss her, didn't sleep with her. That day you saw us? She was there because a syndicate was after her. I only helped her hide!"

"Is that why you were both almost naked?" sarkastikong tanong niya.

Napapikit ako sa pagpipigil ng frustration. I only have this chance now, I cannot blow it off.

"Sweetheart... Kath, I have a guestroom in the apartment, you know that. We slept separately. You know her culture, she's liberated."

"Is that why you kissed? She might be liberated but you are not, or so I thought?" mapait na sumbat nito.

"Kath if you only looked at us clearly, you could have seen that she was the only one who kissed me. I did not respond Kath, I swear!" bulalas ko, hindi napigilang mapataas ang boses.

"Sorry ha? Hindi naman kasi ikaw yung hindi kinontact ng mahal mo ng matagal. Hindi naman kasi ikaw yung nakakita sa fiancé mo na halos hubo't hubad kasama ng ibang babae! Sorry kasi hindi ikaw yung nakakita sa mahal mo na may kahalikang iba!

Sorry kung hindi ko nakita ng malinaw ha? Pero kahit na hinalikan ka niya, sana man lang itinulak mo siya! Sorry kasi hindi ko matanggap kung bakit pumayag kang magpahalik! Sorry kung hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ka naglihim sa akin!" sigaw nito sabay tayo.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry sweetheart. I'm so sorry for not communicating with you. Inaamin ko, inilihim ko ang tungkol sa panganib sa buhay ko that time. Inaamin ko, mali ako na hindi ko siya pinigilang halikan ako pero maniwala ka Katherine nagulat lang ako at hindi nakakilos agad.

Sweetheart I'm sorry. For all the pain, for the sense of betrayal that you felt. I am so sorry," umiiyak na hingi ko dito ng tawad habang nakaluhod sa harap niya.

Hindi siya sumagot. Nanlamig ako sa takot na naramdaman ko. I couldn't afford to lose her.

"All those years of escaping death iisa lang ang nagbibigay sa akin ng rason para mabuhay Katherine, ikaw. I didn't know that you saw me with Victoria and that you misinterpreted it. I am so sorry sweetheart. Patawarin mo sana ako. Hindi kita kayang mawala sa akin ng paulit ulit," patuloy na paghingi ko ng tawad.

"Tumayo ka diyan. Please don't make me feel bad about this. Na para bang kasalanan ko ang hindi kita mapatawad agad agad. You make me feel like I am the one who did you wrong," madiin nitong sabi.

Dahan dahan akong tumayo at sinalubong ang tingin nito. Nagitla ako sa tumutulong luha sa mga pisngi niya. Sinubukan ko itong pahirin ngunit tinabig niya ang kamay ko.

"If you really want forgiveness then give me time. Everything that happened belongs to the past now. Alright, let's say you are telling the truth. Sinusubukan kong patawarin ka. Maybe I cannot do that immediately but in due time, I will.