A book of thoughts.

My Future?

     I wonder what my future has in store for me. Honestly, I've never been able to see my life past maybe the age of 17 and that's a little scary. I know I have a future but I just haven't been able to really "plan one out" like everyone else does. I know what I want to do with my life but I can just never imagine it happening if that makes any sense?

      I want to graduate high school with an advanced honors diploma and at least a 3.8 GPA. I want to go off to college once I turn 18, preferably UNR (University of Nevada Reno). I at least want to obtain a masters degree, I'm leaning more towards the criminal justice path. I want to set myself up for a good career, I want to be stable. I don't want to live in a world of uncertainty, living paycheck to paycheck wondering if i'll be able to eat that day. I'll never let myself stoop that low again. 

     After college I want to work my way up in the ranks. I want to work in some sort of legal aspect, whether that be lawyer, special agent, paralegal, penologist. The opportunities are essentiallyendless. I know I want to help people. I want to give people a second chance at life. 

     I never really could picture myself getting married or having kids but it's a nice thought. I'd like for it to happen someday. Who wouldn't want to spend every day for the rest of their life with someone they were madly in love with and receive the same admiration back? It's about being with someone who understands you and can be there for you on your best days as well as your worst days. Someone who will listen and know how to help you because they know you better than they know themselves. Anyone who doesn't want that must be crazy. 

     Kids. Well, I'm still undecided about having children. I never wanted kids when I was younger. The idea has grown on me a little bit. Maybe if it were with the right person I would be okay with creating another living being with them. I think one of the pure reasons I was never too fond of the idea of having my own children was because I'm afraid to be a bad mom. My mom didn't really know how to be a mom and there's no way I would want to put another generation through the same things I endured. I figured if there's a chance I might mess up then I should just avoid the concept all together. Who knows, maybe one day I will have kids and be an amazing mother, but as of right now its a vague thought in the back of my brain.

     I plan to travel the world. Young or old, I will make it happen. I'm going to visit so many places, who knows; I might even move to one of them. 

That's basically the main premise I have set for my life, or at least what I want to see happen. I know there's a huge chunk of my life I didn't cover but hey, I like a good mystery.