"We accept the love we think we deserve" Is that why I push away everyone that tries to show me love? Because I think I don't deserve it? I know that I don't know how to accept love. I am afraid of the vulnerability that is encompassed in being loved by someone else. I don't even know if I fully know what true unconditional love feels like. It's not something I grew up immersed in or created for myself.
I don't know how to allow myself to be vulnerable enough to let another person love me, or me love them. And on the very few occasion where I have, I have sabotaged my own happniess.
I fear what repercussions might arise from letting another person know me fully. My childhood and overall life at this point is a large case of baggage I carry with me. I don't really have great coping mechanisms, and I don't ever talk about my problems so I guess I still carry the weight of this baggage with me, and sometimes it's baggage people aren't willing to accept. I'm what you would call damaged goods.
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A book of thoughts.
SaggisticaI started this as a way to release all of my emotions, but feel free.
