•Jex P.O.V•
We both laid in bed,With all these thought flowing through our mind.I know she was thinking about something that was killing her.
I could feel it by the way her heart felt against my head..I had laid my head between her boobs just to make a few hickeys,Want to tell everyone around her that she belonged to someone.That someone is me.."What's wrong?" I finally asked as I sat up "Nothing" She said shaking her head "Really?" I asked one last time "Yeah why?" "I don't know,You seem off" I smiled "Well am just trying to progress everything in my mind,With this whole 'My face tattooed to your arm' Thing" She laughed..Silents than flew around as again the thoughts were killing us. "Jex?" She asked
"Yeah?" I said "What do you think about marriage?" She asked "Its full bullshit" I laughed "How come?" she continued asking "Because Lucinda Not everything's going to be a fucken fairy tale,Were not all blessed with forever." I said,She than stood quiet for a second..If you ever notice Forever in real life,Doesn't last.."So no marriage?" She questioned "Not for me" "What about kids?Would you like to have kids one day?" Lucinda asked.I could see the hopes in her eyes for me to say yes for kids but it was the complete opposite.
"Heck no,I don't want to be a dad.Thats even worse than marriage!" I yelled "What if I made you believe in all this?Than would you change your mind?" She asked "Nothing's going to change my mind Baby,I don't want to be a fucken dad,I don't want a child to end up like me" I whispered as I hold her close "Not even if you did all those stuff with me?" Lucinda kept asking "Am sorry,But no.Nothing can change my mind" "It will" She whispered closely in my ear "Your only afraid that,the child will follow your steps" She said.She was right.Am scared I won't be a good father and a good husband.What if I fuck up like my dad?Huh? "Your different Jex,Your good just believe in yourself,I will be with you along this whole journey" She whispered "Are you saying,That your down to be with me forever?" I questioned Lucinda "If we're blessed with a forever than yes,But if we're even more lucky to be blessed with a life time than I would be down.I love you Jex Howard and I can't wait to raise a family with you even if I have to pressure you" She said as she pressed her lips to mine.I hugged her really tight as I closed my eyes.I could hear my mom all the way from heaven saying to hold her tight and that's what am doing.Holding my baby tight.."I think this is the good time to say that your invited to my dads friend party?" She asked nervously "What?" "I might had told my parent I am dating you" She whispered "What did they say?" I asked "Well Princeton told them,But they just said to bring you to the party on Tuesday.Guess they want to meet you" Lucinda said "Of course Princeton busted you out" I laughed "Should I bring a bag of weed to this party or what?" I asked "Heck no Jex my dad thinks your all elegant and have a big reputation" She said "Wow,His way off" I laughed "Shut up cause your perfect even if he doesn't see it" She smiled "Thanks but I don't think I want to go" "Come on Jex I already told them I would bring you!" She begged "Look at me Lucinda I don't go along with them" I said looking down at my rip pants and plain shirt and my whole body covered in ink. "Your unique Jex" She said kissing me "Fine I'll go but you have to give me a blow job" "Deal" She laughed..She than spend the night over and we just watched scary movies and ate pizza and popcorn..It was a good night.Its all I ever dreamed of having.A girl,Pizza,And a scary movie..
