Addiction

Chapter 38

•Jex P.O.V•
Days and days has pass since She told me she cheated on me.I was heart broken and I still am.These days been nothing but dark to me.
I've wrote a song but without my guitar I couldn't come up with the melody. "Singing my heart wasn't enough,Chocking myself hoping I'll die any time soon just wasn't enough." I singed out loud "Keep it down Justin Bieber!!" Yelled an officer "Ight" I mumbled..

*18 Weeks Later*
"Howard You have a visitor!" Yelled the officer as he knocked down the door of my cell.
"I don't want to see no one!" I yelled as I stared at the celling "Don't make this hard on me Howard!" He yelled back as he hit his stick against my bed "I already said I don't want to see no one!" I yelled as I got up and pushed him back "That's it!!!" He yelled as he grabbed my arm and twisted it and slammed my face to the wall "I warned you" He whispered as he put the handcuffs and pushed my ass out of the cell and into the visiting room. No one was there waiting for me so it was a bit weird.
"No ones here" I harshy said as I turned to the officer who brought me here "Just sit down!!" He yelled as he pushed me to the chair.I huff and slowly sat down.I waited seconds before I felt a tap on my shoulder.I turned around to find Lucinda.She was..She looked different,She looked pale and her hair was longer than usual. her blue eyes didn't have that shine that was normally found in the middle circle of her eye ball.The one thing I couldn't stop looking at was her stomach.She can't be pregnant.She can't.Could it be that she's seeing someone else?No..The taught of someone else holding her killed me.I can't picture Lucinda saying "I love you" to anyone else other than me.No one going to love her like I did,And am pretty sure no one will take care of her like I did.I made sure she was safe and I made sure to give her everything I could but i guess it wasn't enough.She still stood me up by cheating on me."Hey" She said as a tear went down her cheek.I said nothing."I know you don't want to talk to me but Please I need you to say something for what am going to tell you"  Lucinda said as she took a seat I front of me,I still couldn't keep my eyes off,Of her stomach..is She's having a baby?
"As you can see am pregnant" She said flashing me a fake smile "Your wasting my time" I harshly say "Jex this baby..This baby is yours" She mumbled..You know that feeling when you don't even know what the fuck you're feeling..I was feeling that way right now.I couldn't speak.The words I wanted to say didn't leave my mouth.My mind was going faster than the 60 seconds a minute provided us with.Millions of things crossed my mind. What was I gong to do??What should I say next..in my mind I had it done.I was going to get up and just leave,But somehow it all went downhill.I looked at the officer and than looked back to my hands that were tied up with the handcuffs.He nodded and came to my direction to take them off.Once my hand were relieved I gently put one hand on her stomach.
"This is mine?" I asked "Yeah" She cried "Your for real?" I asked again.She than nodded.I started to fell the tears forming.I never imagine myself as a father.Never in a millions years would I even imagine myself having my own child.Its Crazy!.i got on my knees in front of her and just started to break down. "Lucinda don't play with me yeah,Please tell me it's not real" I cried "Jex this is your baby,I knew it for a while now but I was afraid to tell you" She whispered as he rubbed her big tummy. "Why did you wait so long?"  "I was scared you don't want nothing to do with us" She cried "Well your right" I got up on my feet and turned my back on her "Your kidding right?You have a child Jex" Lucinda said as she got up as well "I can't take care of it while am here.God I don't even think I would be able to take care of it even if I wasn't here" I spoked
"You can do it Jex,I'll be by your side the whole time" I could feel her coming closer to me as she spoked "You don't know that Lucinda!" I yelled "Am lost here,Am fucking going crazy!!" I yelled louder as I finally turned to face her "I need A cigarette!!I need alcohol to survive and am not getting no shit here!!" I yelled as I was inches away from her face.She bite her bottom lip before bringer her lips to mine.Like I said I was going out of my mind.I needed drugs to survive this place,And just the way her lips felt against mine was the cure to bring me back to life..we were so close against each other that I think I felt the baby kick. "Did you feel that?" Lucinda asked as she flashed me a smile. "Yeah" I smiled back as I put my hand on her stomach.I still couldn't believe it. "I want a boy" I said as silents started coming against us "Really?I want a girl" She laughed "No,No girl.I want a boy.So I can play soccer with and I don't know I can tattoo him" I said playing around with her
"Your not tattooing our kid" She laughed as she punched me playfully. "Whatever" I said rolling my eyes..She stayed a bit longer and just told me about everything.She said her dad was going to support her until I get out of here and I am really glad.I don't want Lucinda to be out there working her ass out just because I couldn't get my shit together.