Amnesia

Chapter 19

James' POV

I'm in the house while some shitty song was been played.

"Ugh, mom! Won't you change the song? " I screamed to my mom since she was in her room, doing some clothes chores.

"No, honey! I love that song! "

"Imma change it! "

"You better not or I'll do something to you! "

I chuckled. Sometimes, my mom really acted like a kid.

"Alrighty, imma go out and take some fresh air and bring some home so that you know what is comforts! "

"Get out, then! " my mom screamed. And then I heard she was laughing loudly. Despite all these screaming and mess, she still loves me and always be there for me whenever I need her. I just love my mom.

When I step out from my house, I saw Aurora in front of my residence. Pacing around and listening to some songs. Then, she sat on the branch in front of my house.

She's crying.

Dear God, she's crying! Why?

I went down and greet her.

"Aurora? " she tilt her head and looked at me.

Damn, she so beautiful.

I just gotten out of shower so I feel so fresh to meet her. Do I have to be like this? It's just Aurora. Duh.

"Hey, sorry. " she shed her tears. God, how I want to shed her tears and tell her everything is going to be alright. How I wanted to hug her and keep her in my arms so that I can secure her. How I wanted to just kiss–

What was I thinking about?

"No, no need. Are you okay? " I asked her.

"Yeah, I'm fine. " shortly she answered. Give me full sentence, Roe. I love hearing your voice.

"What song are you listening to? It makes you cry. " I remarked.

She looks shocked. Probably surprised because I noticed her tears.

I noticed everything you do, Roe.

"Love the Way You Lie. "

"Part two or one? "

"Two."

"I can rap you know. "

Then she chuckled. Oh my God, just look at her smile.

I smiled. "Why are you laughing? "

"I'm not. It's just funny how you always brag about your rapping skills."

"Of course, I have to. You can't rap. " I bragged.

I love to brag the things that Roe can't do because she'll looks so cute when she's pouting.

"Of course, I can't."

"Aurora? " I take a deep breath.

I can do this. If I'm going to make this up, I have to do this. For us.

"Yeah? " she turned off her iPod and looked at me.

"I missed you. "

Everything went silent. No sound, she was breathing and I was too, as far as I can remember.

She smiled. "I have to go now. See you later. "

Wait, what?

No. I grabbed her wrist, "No wait. "

"Yes? "

"Listen to me, please. " I pleaded.

She sat back beside me and I hold her hand. As tightly as I could but not enough to hurt her. I don't want to let her go. Ever again.

"I know I've been a completely asshole to you but I want to make this up. Can I? "

She was quiet. Probably thinking everything that I've done to her. Oh my God, how I regret those days.

"I don't know. I'm scared of you. "

What?

"Why should you? " I asked back.

"I don't know. You just did. You did things that I never expect from you. You leave me after granny. You're a bad guy since then. You never loved me since then, " she looked directly to me.

"You never missed me. "

I was breathless. Everything was fucking true and I hated it.

"I'm sorry. I never want to do whatever I've done to you! I'm sorry for hurting you but you don't think I was hurt? I was fucking hurt watching you hurt! Every night whenever you came into your room, you we're in pain! I went to your room one day because I couldn't stand to watch it. I missed you. I loved you and always love you! " I was panting.

I wanna say more about it but she was crying. She burst in tears and it fucking hurts in my heart.

I lean closer to her, "I never want to hurt you and trust me. I'll never want to. You're my life. You're mine. I love you, Aurora. "

She was trembling, "I'm scared. Of everything. Of you, my family, school. Everything. I missed Granny. I want her back. I want you back. "

This my moment.

"I'm here now. " I said, leaning closer to her.

"I want you back then. This is not you. And I'm still afraid of what you can do to me. I'm sorry, I have to go. " she kissed my cheek and ran straight into her house.

Without my knowing, I cried. Loud and clear. Since no one is around, I cried even louder. Boys can't cry? I've held this tears for yeas and this is the only moment I could let them go.

She was afraid of me. Because shat I've did to her.

You're so fucking stupid, James!

I missed her. I want her. I love her I truly did. But words couldn't prove anything right now. She was afraid with someone who knows her. Me. I'm the bad guy.

I went into my house and mom spotted it right away.

She hugged me.

"You finally talked to her. " she started.

So she was watching..

"But it didn't go that well. I missed her, mom. What should I do? "

"Well, how about lower your ego and try every single thing to gain her trust back? You can do this. "

"I'm scared, mom. "

"If you are, then how are you going to get her back? "

"I'll try my best okay? As long as you don't stalk me ever again! "

I tickled her and she was laughing plus crying or I don't know. Women is hard.

I laughed while stepped inside my room.

It's time to get her back.

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