To love you ..

Realization

Dinner went good. Lucy knew that Dad was here. Mom and Lucy planned everything of course. Steven introduce us to his girlfriend, Anika. She's kind and lovely. Unlike her ex-girlfriend that cheated on her. Anika was a daughter of a Senator and her mom was a great model too. Sierra and Josh was also here. Well, i don't care with them. Alistaire has caught my Dad's eyes. He always have Alistaire with him. Another person to spoil my little princess.

We are now settled down at the entertainment room. Gentlemen was starting with their beers but us, remained with the juices.

"Alistaire come here. Papa is drinking." I waved at Alistaire cause she was still sitting at my Dad's lap. She get up from my Dad's lap then sit beside me. I'm having a talk with Anika, since we sit here. You know girls stuff. She's only fifteen but believe me she's really good. She's a catch.

"Alistaire you are so pretty." Anika hold Alistaire's cheek.

"Of course. Her Mommy was pretty too. Right honey?" I popped my head to Alistaire that was sitting in the middle of us.

"Mommy was pretty. You are pretty too Aunt Anika." She smiled at Anika and kissed her on the cheek. I saw from the corner of my eye that Sierra's looking at us.

"Ohh. Thank you baby." Anika smiled at Alistaire.

We talked about everything. She's attending school with Steven that's how they met each other. She's a good student based on her story and has a good family background.

"Anika, it was nice meeting you. I see you soon." I hugged Anika as Steven was waiting for her inside the car. My parents liked her. The looks that they are giving to Anika, same as the looks that they set for Jason.

"Sure thing Steph. Well i can't get enough of your daughter." She smiled. She'll be here on christmas eve until the day after the christmas cause her parents is not around by that time.

"Take care." She nodded then jumped inside the car. She waved then Steven started the car engine. I made my way back to the entertainment room.

"Baby.." I whispered to Jason as i wrapped my arms on his neck behind him. He was still on the couch drinking with my Dad and that Josh.

"You want to go home now baby?" He tilt his head to meet my eyes. I shook my head and tucked on his shoulder. Mom and Lucy was looking towards us with a plastered smile on their faces.

"Enough with the drinking okay? I might wake you up later, you know my sleeping habits are weird." I softly whispered to him. I hate it when his drinking. His cheek was so red and his smell sucks.

"I love you. I love you. I love you." He murmured as he touch my cheeks. I remained standing behind him as my arms wrapped on his neck down to his chest.

"Stephanie. Are you sleepy?" I heard Dad asked. I shook my head and still remained in my position. Alistaire walked towards me and pulled my hoodie.

"What was that princess?" I loose my hold onto him and carry Alistaire in my arms.

"Sandy get my Ipad." She frowned. I glanced at Sandy and there, she's holding the Ipad of Alistaire.

"She just borrow it. Just get Mommy's Ipad." I point her my bag and she quickly jumped out of my arms. I walked towards the couch and sit beside Jason.

"Stephanie, when will be the house blessing of your house?" Lucy asked me. I sit properly and grabbed Alistaire's body. I want some cuddle with my daughter.

"I already ask Laureen to arrange everything. If i'm not mistaken it will be after christmas." I simply said. I hugged Alistaire as she keeps on playing. I love how her hair smells, so baby thing.

"I'm for the catering. Don't say no." Lucy humbly said. See? It's just a house blessing and they will make it extravagant.

All their plans for the house blessing was discussed. Mom and Lucy shared everything. I don't know with them. Jason, Alistaire and I will stay there for three days after the house blessing. Sleepover with my friends is it. Sierra was here but didn't bother to butt in. I don't like to talk to her also.

"Dad we'll leave now. We'll be here tomorrow." I hugged then kissed him.

"Yes. We'll be going to granny tomorrow." Dad stated. It's our yearly routine to visit granny. Granny is my mom's mother. She's really important to us.

"Yes. Love you Dad." I said. Alistaire kissed him then my mom. Jason's a little tipsy so i'll be driving us home.

"You little girl, we'll be going to beach tomorrow. Papa we'll see you tomorrow huh?" Dad get Alistaire from Jason's arms and hugged her.

"Love you papa. Bye." Alistaire's sweet little voice murmured. Dad put her down on the floor and kissed my forehead.

"Steph. Tomorrow okay? All of us we'll be going there." I nodded. Mom hugged me then kissed me.

We waved our goodbyes to them and settled in the car. I drive going to Lucy's house. Good that it's only two streets away. As we reach their house, their maids unloaded the things from the car and bring it to Lucy's room. Lucy made her way to her room as she said her goodnight to us. I quickly put Alistaire on shower cause she don't like Lea to do that to her. I put her to bed and quickly go to Jason's room. His really drunk. I can feel the dizziness and tiredness. Exhausted if i must say.

"Baby. Get up. I'll put you to shower." I'm trying to pulled him up the bed but i failed. I sighed and attempted to do it again.

"I told you not to drink too much, you didn't listen to me!" I shouted at him. His sitting on the bed now and just staring at me.

"I'm not saying that it's wrong that you drink, but you know that i'm not feeling well!" I still shouted. His making me upset now. I told him many times that don't drink too much. And now his just like that, not moving and just staring at me.

"Stephanie. I didn't drink too much. So stop shouting at me!" He shouted. I looked at him, a little shock. He shouted back? Really?

"Okay. Fine. Stop shouting at me too!" I grab my bag and put my flops on. He grabbed me by wrist and hold it tightly.

"Where are you going?" He shouted at me then push me to bed. He started to ripped off my clothes. I put my hand on his chest to stop him. He kissed me hard and holds me tight. It wasn't good, i feel so hurt. He rolled my shorts down and started to fuck me. I feel the anger and hurt as he did that. I push him off of me. I pulled up my shorts and fixed my top that was slightly ruined. I started to cry. He really did that? I sat on the edge of the bed as tears rolled down my eyes. I get my bag and put my hair in a messy bun.

"I'm sorry." He mumbled looking down at the floor. I get my things and Alistaire things on his closet and put it on my travel bag. I don't know why did he do that to me? Yes i' m his future wife, but how he act towards me? I feel like i'm a slut.

"I'll be going home. I'll bring Alistaire." I get up from the floor and carry my bags. He hold me and wrapped his arms on me.

"Please baby. I'm sorry." He cried.

"It's okay." I simply said.

"Steph, i didn't mean to hurt you. I'm drunk." He stated between his tears. I was upset and pissed off.

"I'm tired Jason. Totally tired." I cried. I sit in the floor and close my eyes.

"Baby. I'm sorry." He sit beside me then hugged me. I cried my everything to his shoulder. I know he didn't mean to do that, but the hurt that i'm feeling. I don't know.

We stayed on the floor not looking at each other. I was still crying, same as him. I'm on his chest as he was rubbing my back. I remained stiff and continue to cry.

"You want to shower?" He softly whispered.

"Make love to me.." I answered back ignoring his question.  I want him to make love to me, to remove the feeling of being hurt inside of me. He looked at me being so confuse.

"Please. Make love to me.." I begged between my tears. He wiped away the tears that keeps on falling from my eyes.

"I'm sorry. Stop crying." He peck a kiss on my lips and hugged me tight. He pulled me up from the floor and put me to bed.

"Let's shower first. Don't say no." He seriously said. I just nodded.

He started to kiss me softly. He rolled up my top and tossed it over my head. Unhooked my bra with one hand and pulled down my short on his other hand. He pulled me up from the bed. We continue to kiss each other with so much love. I unzipped his pants then pulled it down with his boxers. His top that i quickly remove from him. Kisses that's making me weak. We are now walking towards the bathroom. Still not leaving each other's lips.

After making out at his bathroom, we formally shower. He wiped my whole body to dry me and i did the same to him. We go back to his bed, still naked. Wrapped around at each other. Savouring each other's taste. I feel so important now. How he holds and make love to me. I moaned softly in his ears. I love how we connect to each other. The heavy breath that was coming from him, soothes me. He remove the hurt that i am feeling. No words can describe this.

"I love you." He whispered and brush the loose hair strands on my face. I was lying on the bed as he was still on top of me and very careful watching his weight above me.

"I love you too." I pulled him more and kiss him softly.

I don't know what time is it now, knowing that we have an early drive tomorrow. I have nothing on my mind now but to make love with him. I can say that even if we have a little argument, we see to it that we patch up things quickly. I don't know but when it comes to him, i just break down and cry. His really my weakness.

Two months of being together and still counting. Short time if i must say. I don't need someone other than him. I've been a messed once, but not with him. His a great decision. A great choice.

This feeling for him is between happiness and being afraid. Happiness cause i have him and his mine and afraid that one day he will just leave me. But seeing the happenings in our life, i don't think that he will leave me. At the age of seventeen, we have our little family. Some says that, we should enjoy being teenagers. But for me, yea, i want to enjoy this stage. Enjoy with him. How can we explore the world with our babies. It's very fine for me that i get pregnant at this age, there's no regret with this. Life has been planned for us.

"Baby." He whispered. We were now under our cover, naked and still proclaiming our love to each other.

I climbed out of the bed because i feel like throwing up. I stand in front of the sink and throw up. Ohh morning sickness. Can you just leave me for tonight? My man really needs me. I stepped out of the bathroom after that vomitting.

"You okay baby?" He roughly said. I pass over him and check the time; 2:28 am.  If i can just stand here and look at Jason's body, i will do that.

"Yea. Just a little throwing up session." I smiled weakly. I laid beside him on the bed.

"Plans before christmas?" He asked. I moved closer to him and lean on his chest.

"Shopping for the gifts." I giggled. I love christmas shoppings!

"Alright. What gift do you want baby?" He gazed into my eyes and smiled.

"I have everything now. So.. Nothing." I placed a small kiss on his shoulder.

"I think we can travel with Alistaire? When your Dad already leave again for work, let us go somewhere." He excitedly said. I nodded then hugged him.

"That will be great! We need to travel before this bump get obvious. Even for the last time i want to wear my bikinis." I pouted. He laughed then kiss me.

"Ohh. You can still wear those. You're going to be a hot Mommy." He grinned. I hit his chest then place myself above him. No plans for sleeping.

Rest of the midnight for us was talk about our house, the vacation and the gender of this baby. We see to it that between those topics kissing and touching each other was really a main concern for us. He teased me that i should wear all my bikinis when we go to a vacation. Silly man, right?

I really love how our day ends, actually our morning ends. Naked and not even caring with the world.