This past week has been the busiest week in my entire life. I've been through a lot of meetings and crap. Monday to friday was filled with smiles and meet ups with new people.
Last monday, well, that was the start of our busy week. We had that meeting at our company. Mom and Lucy discussed everything at us with the board members. We only have eight months, yes eight months, to study and review everything. We just need to reach our eighteenth birthday before taking over the company. Jason was a bit pressured and shit about that.
Tuesday until thursday, a lot of contract signing for me and my little one. Yes, she's a model now. Model of our own clothing company and one famous brand for toddlers. She was also the new model for toys and even toiletries for kiddos. I was really happy for my Alistaire. My secretary was fixing everything for our schedule. I was back on track also for modelling, we're gonna be modelling a mother and daughter edition for our own clothing brand.
Friday, we're at our house but we have visitors. Our house was featured for a magazine issue. The editor in chief, was my dear friend from social community. They took pictures all over our house. A little interview on us asking like, how did we manage this house? How did we build up the theme? You know all the facts about how, where and why about this house. They even asked us about our relationship. Well, time to reveal to everyone, about Alistaire.
I don't want to tell to everyone that Alistaire was adopted. So i maintain the idea of being pregnant at fourteen, knocked up by Jason. I told them that it was kept because of my studies and for my self sake also. I don't care if the others will react negatively, it's my decision. Only chosen people knew about the truth. Close friends, family members, nothing else.
And today is saturday, we stayed at my family's house for the whole day. Dad was home. He gave us some stuffs like chocolates, clothes and everything. Actually, i'm not on my mood a while ago.
They are all focus to Sierra. I know she's pregnant, that's why they are taking care of her. Soon Alistaire will be forgotten, i'm not looking forward on that day. I make sure that if Sierra's baby was born, Alistaire was on her limelight as a model. I'm acting like a bitch, but i just want the best for my daughter. We can stay away from my family, as long as Sierra's pregnancy was their priority. I know that will be their first grandchild, and so for me? I'm jealous, to top it all. I'm happy for her but that's all. I already told Mom that i will not visit her for the mean time, i told her that i'll be busy in this coming months. That's a lie, i just don't want to go there as long Sierra's there. Sierra will stay on our family's house, she's due in two months. Mom has that different treatment on Sierra. She's really my mom's favorite. I was really jealous that's why i'm acting like this.
"Steph, Jason. I'll sleep now. Goodnight." Lucy kissed us on our forehead as she stepped out of our theater. Alistaire was already sleeping, she's so tired. I already told to Lucy what i felt about my mom and Sierra. She comforts me and did some advice on me. I am greatful that Lucy was here with us. She's been a great mother towards me.
"I want to go to bed now." I sighed. Jason nodded and turn off the switch on the theater. We made our way on our room, silence was filling up our night. I wasn't on the mood, i'm upset and pissed off with everything.
"You go to sleep now. It's ladies day tomorrow, what's your plan?" Jason cheerfully said, changing the mood in our room. I shook my head then sat on the edge of the bed. I felt that tears was forming on my eyes that soon rolled down on my cheeks.
"Baby, what's wrong? I don't like to see you crying." Jason kneel down in front of me, wiping my tears away with his thumb.
"Thank you for everything baby. Without you i'm nothing." I sobbed. He squatted on the carpet, in front of me. His amazing in all ways. His the only person that always have his attention on me. My whole family was focus to Sierra. I know, i'm acting like an idiot, i'm feeling alone now. I'm jealous and wanting their attention.
"You don't need to thank me, okay? Stephanie, i know your jealous at Sierra. The way your parents treated her, but baby, she's pregnant and you've been treated like that before." He lean his chin on my knees, still looking straight on my eyes. I was a type of person that really wants someones attention, weird, but i know it's impossible.
"Baby.. What if i didn't get pregnant before, So ever since they knew that Sierra's pregnant they will just stuck their attention on her? I'm their daughter, they should treat us fairly." I calmly stated. I continue to cry, it's me, the crying lady. Jason handed me my tissue box, squeezing my knees as i cried harder.
"I'm sorry baby. Sorry. Stop crying. I know, i can't help you with this. But for now, you need rest, your just tired." He get up from the floor, pushing me towards our bed. I laid down on our bed, his beside me, pulling me closer to him.
"If i get pregnant, i don't like to tell them. Let's keep it. I don't want them in my life baby.." I sighed. I moved closer to him, placing my head on his chest. Staying on his body can make me feel calm.
"I feel so hurt now. I will not bring Alistaire there because for sure, she will not get any attention from them." I continued. His rubbing my back, keeping me relax and calm.
"I'm speaking in behalf of Alistaire baby, it's not for me. I always wanted Alistaire to have all attention on her. I want her to feel that she's love and important." I cried and cried. I want to scream out loud, to say all the hurt that i am feeling. Jason was still rubbing my back. He knows that i need to pull out this feeling out from me.
"When Sierra was born, i was three that time. I love that moment cause, wow, i have a baby sister. I don't like Steven that time cause his a boy and doesn't playing with me. As the day goes by, they soon focus all their attention to Sierra. I was a kid, i still want an attention." This is the story that i was keeping that's why i am feeling this towards Mom and Sierra.
"I didn't understand things that time. When I'm on our fifth grade that's when i noticed Mom's different approach to Sierra. She always had sandwiches for Sierra, while me, i always had Evelyn's sandwich. I keep myself not to keep jealous on that. It's small thing right?" I sighed. I looked at Jason and his really listening to me. He got up from lying then have his half sit position. He pulled me closer to him, placing his chin above my head.
"Time flew so fast, i'm on high school. I want the dress that i saw on our mall that time. I asked Mom to have that for me cause i still don't have my cards that time. She told me that she will soon buy it for me. I waited for that. We had this small dinner at our house. Mom was holding the paper bag, she pulled out the dress that i asked her. I was so happy that time, cause finally i'll be having that. But i'm wrong. Baby.. I'm wrong!" I hit his chest, burying my head on my hands.
"She gave it to Sierra! I was expecting her to gave it to me. From that day, i knew that Mom love Sierra so much. She loves us but not as much as she love Sierra. I enrolled on a modelling class, i started my modelling career. I want to show something for my Mom. I was an A student, an achiever. I set myself to became great. I want to prove something to Mom." I stopped crying and sighed. Jason held me back in his arms, kissing the top of my head.
"But still Sierra is the apple of her eye. Mom was caring and thoughful.. to everybody. Sierra was really different for her. Remember when she got pregnant, Mom just get mad then later on accept it. She didn't hurt Sierra. While i? I was just asking her for a favor about my sleepover on your house, what did she did and said? She get mad and i even got a slap from her." I looked towards the door. I just stared at there for a moment then shifted my sight back to Jason.
"I'm sorry if i told you this baby. I know your thinking that i'm selfish, i'm an idiot. But who doesn't want an attention? Everyone wants and deserve it." I smiled weakly. He pulled me for a hug. If Jason was not here, i think i already commit a suicide.
"Everyone deserves it. Some people are just blind to see others that was asking for attention." He whispered. Without him, i'm lost.
"That's why i want the best for Alistaire. Call me spoiler, but i really want to treat her nice. If we got another child, i'll treat them fair. Love them fair. You get my point baby?" He nodded. We remained silent for a couple of minutes. I was still hurt but at least now, i already told him the thing that i really want to say. We laid back on the bed, still wrapped on each other. I lifted my head from him, seeing that his already sleeping, so i decided to close my eyes and force myself to sleep.
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I felt that i'm a little shaken. Shaken by some small hands. I touch the spot next to me, Jason was still there. I rubbed my eyes and open it slowly. I saw our little girl sitting on the bed, still shaking both of our body.
"Morning. Come here honey." I smiled at her, gesturing my hand to her to come closer. Slowly she get up and crawled on the space next to me.
"Mommy. Mama Lucy was cooking breakfast. That's why i am here to wake you up." Alistaire explains. She's with her low voice and she's murmuring her words. I put her under our cover and wrapped her in my arms. I love how this little girl smells, she smells like a baby and her breath smells like candy with milk. Ohh. Weird!
"But Daddy was still sleeping.. Hmm, Alistaire, Mommy will tell you something. But it's gonna be a secret between us." I offered her my pinky for a pinky promise. She quickly put her pinky on mine and murmured 'promise'. How cute we are!
"Mommy was so lucky to have you. You are one of the reason why Mommy and Daddy was happy. We're doing our everything just to give you the love and care that you deserve." I was just looking at her while stating that fact. It was the effect of my drama last night, being this emotional and all.
"I love you Mommy. I will be a good girl, promise." She smiled and peck a kiss on my lips. Ohh what a sweet start! It's ladies day, another great day to happen.
I whispered a plan to Alistaire, about waking up her Daddy and she wants to do it now. Alistaire sit on Jason's chest while i will sit on his hips. We started to wiggle our body and jump lightly above his body. He groaned but get back to his sleep again. Next plan, We move on each side of his body. Alistaire kiss his lips then i do the same. We repeat that action and when i kiss him again, i felt a tongue and a return kiss, it became passionate and deep, realizing that Alistaire was here, i pulled out from the kiss.
"Morning Alistaire. How was my princess' sleep?" He get up, looking at me, in the most lustful way he can. I remember the thing that we had last sunday, i swear, my whole body was sore and hurt. He thrust so much inside of me. Well, we're doing all of this to have a little one on my tummy again.
"It was good Daddy. Daddy.. I want to buy new toys." Alistaire used her puppy eyes, no one can't resist that pleading look from her. My little girl was using her charms now.
"Ask your Mommy if she wants to go somewhere today." Jason grinned. I was just looking at him, not leaving a sight on him. I can spend a lifetime, just to look at him.
"Ohh.. Yea, it's okay. Where do you want to go?" I climbed out of the bed then stand. If i were that near to this man, i think i'm gonna get more weak. His giving me a hard time.
"Mall Mommy. I want pizza too." Alistaire jumps on the bed and launch herself on me. I carried her in my arms, giving her a tight hug.
"Mam Steph. Someone's looking for you." Our maid said as i heard a soft knock. I walked towards the door with this little one on my arms.
"Who? I'll be down in a bit." Our maid nodded. Who would that be? In this early morning, a visitor? Really?
"Baby, we'll go down now, just follow us, okay?" I stepped backward and saw him nodded. I closed our door and made my way down. Good that i'm wearing a robe, it's a little presentable. I look at my little girl, well she's wearing a nice sleepwear. I walked down to the living room, seeing our visitor.
"Steph.." She welcomed me by a hug and kiss on cheeks, same to Alistaire.
"Georgia.. Sorry, if we're still wearing sleepwears, we just woke up." I laughed. We sat across them, noticing that she's with her husband and her little girl.
"Sorry for disturbing you. Well, we just drop by here, you know a visit." Georgia smiled. I saw Lucy stepped out of the dining. I got up from the couch and stopped her on her walking.
"Morning Mom." I hugged her. She kiss the top of my head and place a kiss on Alistaire too.
"Mom, this is Georgia, Matthew and.." I looked at Georgia.
"Sabrina." Georgia continued. Ohh, thanks. I don't know her daughter's name. I softly laughed and lifted my little girl on my arms again.
"Ohh, Hi. I'm Lucy. That man's mother." Lucy pointed to my man that was now making his way down. He already have his shower.
"It's nice to meet you Mam." Georgia smiled, while her husband gave us a smile too. Alistaire was still on my arms, jumping as she saw her Daddy. She was quickly stole away from me and i felt an arm wrapped on my waist.
"Morning Matthew.. Georgia." Jason smiled. Lucy excuse herself, saying that she will shower first and she's already done with the breakfast. We sat on the couch across Georgia's little family.
"So, how was everything?" I asked. Alistaire was on her Daddy's lap, still asking for mall today.
"Good. Steph, i want to ask if i still can put Sabrina under your foundation? She'll be on school next year." I saw hesitation in Georgia's eyes. I know their living wasn't as good as we have.
"Of course. How old are you Sabrina?" I smile towards the little girl beside Georgia, she really looks like Georgia.
"I'm four." She smiled. I nodded. If i was in Georgia's state too, i will not hesitate to ask others just for my child's education. That will be the best gift to our child, their education.
"Ohh. Sabrina, meet my princess, this is Alistaire." I grabbed Alistaire's body and put her in my lap. My little girl wave at Sabrina then lean her head on my chest. She's not in the mood.
"Lea, arrange the table, for six, two kiddos." Jason loudly said to get Lea's attention from the kitchen. We just heard a response saying, 'yes sir'. As Jason being the head of our house, his too responsible with everything.
"No need for the breakfast Jason, we already had it. We really just drop by here." Georgia waved her hands. Alistaire was murmuring on my ears, 'Mommy.. Mall'. If she said it, she wants it. Too spoiled.
"Georgia, we need to talk about the foundation. So please accept the breakfast, it's just a breakfast." I shrugged and smiled. I got up from the couch with this little girl on my arms.
"Mam, the table is ready." Lea announced, as she stepped out of the dining. I nodded and thanked her. Jason pulled me between his legs, turning my body to face him, wrapping his arms on my waist.
"I didn't greet you a good morning. Can you bent a little?" Jason stated. For sure it was heard by everyone here in the living room. I bent a little, still holding this little girl.
"Good Morning and thank you for waking me up with your kisses." He softly whispered, pecking a kiss on my lips. How can he manage to do that with this people around us?
"Hush. Come on now. Continue this later." I laughed then pulled him up from the couch. I gestured my hands towards Georgia, to follow us on the dining. Since we've been settled here at our own house, Jason was sitting on the center and i'm always on his right side. His the head of the family now and we're really happy with all of this around us.
"Wow. You have a long table huh." Georgia exclaimed as she sat on the stool. Our maids started to place the food in each plate. Lea was standing behind Alistaire and other maids was on the corner.
"Sometimes we are hosting a dinner. It really fits us all." I smiled, placing the slice banana on my mouth. I'm starting on my diet again, my morning meal was fruit and oatmeal only with a glass of milk.
"Ma, look at this." Sabrina pointed to Georgia something on her plate. I think it's the shape of the cereals. Alistaire's cereals was coral reefs shapes, i found it on the internet and i ordered tons of it.
"Alistaire loves little mermaid so i need those things to caught her attention on foods." I explained. They just nodded. Jason and Matthew was having a talk about their business. My fiancée was interested in their food stall.
"Mommy mall.." Alistaire pulled my hand. I stand up and carried her in my arms.
"No need to tell Mommy. You go with Lea and shower, then we will go to mall after. Alright?" I softly said. She wrapped her arms on my neck, rubbing her nose.
"Yehey! I love you Mommy." She planted kisses on my face. I saw in the corner of my eyes that the others was looking at us.
"Can you do some favor for Mommy?" I whispered to her. She nodded and moved her face closer to me. Treating my daughter like she's the only thing in the world, is really a great feeling for me. I want to feel this from my Mom but i know i can't.
"Is it okay if we give your new toys to Sabrina? We'll buy some later and that's a promise." I wiggled my pinky on her but she's thinking. She put her pinky on mine, saying that it's a, 'pinky promise'.
"You're really a good girl. Lea, get the paper bag on her.. Ohh wait.. Where did you put the paper bag filled with her toys?" I asked. Alistaire have that bounty sets of toys and i can't remember where did we put the new ones.
"On her walk in mam. I get it." Lea smiled then walked out of the dining. Lea was really attentive in all ways. She's really a big help here. I continue to carry Alistaire while the others was still eating. Jason was gesturing to me to put down Alistaire but i don't like, so i ignore him.
"Sabrina, are you good to your Mom?" I asked as i keep on hugging my little girl. Georgia was done with her food. I'm sure they are all full because of what Lucy prepared. It's mouth watering but i'm on my diet, so, no for that.
"Yes. I always obey what my Mom says. Mama said that i should be happy with what we have." That was a great thing to hear from a little girl like her. Georgia was good in taking care of Sabrina. They may be on the middle class lifestyle but they are happy as i can see.
"That's good. Just continue being a good girl and love your parents so much. Okay?" She nodded. Georgia was smiling on her daughter, i'll feel the same way if i heard my daughter saying those things.
"How about you Alistaire, are you good to your Mom?" Georgia asked. I put Alistaire down on the stool as i stand beside her. Her arms was still wrapped on me, such a sweet little one.
"Yes because i'm a big girl now. I always follow what Mommy and Daddy says. Especially when Mommy got pregnant, i'm really a good one." And that made me froze. I keep smiling but that really affects me. Ohh, if our baby didn't leave me so soon, his still here on my bump.
"You got pregnant Steph?" Georgia asked. I saw Lea making her way towards us. How can i answer this?
"Yes. Unfortunately i had a miscarriage three months ago. It happened because of a car accident." I smiled weakly. Lea tapped me on my side and handed me the paper bag, i thanked her for that.
"This is for Sabrina." I handed her the paper bag filled with new toys. Sabrina quickly get the bag from her mother and thanked me for that.
We still had a small talk and all. I gave her Laureen's number to schedule her for the foundation. It feels so good to help. They already left our house and thanked me for all the help.
We're now preparing ourselves. Of course we're going to mall. Lucy will go with us, cause i really want her with us. Surely it will be a great one with my little family.
