To love you ..

Time flew so fast

"Alistaire! Do you want me to get mad at you?" I slightly shouted. This girl really didn't sleep well last night. Since she woke up this morning, she's crying and whining at Lea. Lea can't control her, so she quickly asked us for some help. Alistaire stopped as she saw me but cried again. I don't know, her tantrums was really on her now.

"I told you to stop crying. Mommy's asking you what do you want, but you're not answering. How can Mommy know huh? Aunt Anika was waiting for you. We will swim today remember?" I softly said to her. Today was our beachy time. The whole family was going with us except for Sierra. She's not comfortable to travel with her baby bump.

"Come on. Get up now. Your things was already at Mama Sarah's house. Daddy's waiting too. Please princess?" I begged at her as she remained lying on the bed. Jason was already on my family's house. I told him to bring our things there so that we're not rushing when we go there.

We'll just stay at the beach for two days only. We're going to our private beach because Mom insisted. She don't want many people around her and she really want Alistaire and Sandy to enjoy the place without any harm around them.

"You still don't want Alistaire?" She shook her head, pouting her small lips. Just her, i'm dead tired.

"Mommy will get a little girl outside. I will buy her mermaid stuffs and bring her to the beach." I got up from the bed, smirking. I know she don't like what i said.

"I just want chocolate." She shouted then rolled her eyes. Such a bratty like me.

"That's bad for your teeth remember? Even Dra. Harps said that it's not good for your health." I touch her face then brushed away those loose hair strands. She's getting more hyper everytime she eats chocolates that's why i don't like that for her.

"I'll call Daddy that your not coming with us. Will be getting a new daughter that can love and follow us." I reached for my phone and fakely dialled on it. She got up from the bed then hugged me.

"No Mommy. I'm your only baby." She whined. I can hear her small sobs as she was hugging me.

"If you are our only baby why aren't you following me? I thought you love Mommy." I released myself from the hug and made a sad face. It's already twelve noon and we need to leave by one. How can we leave by one if Alistaire is like this?

"You promised me that you'll do everything just to make me happy right? Why are you like this now?" I felt a tears rolled down my cheeks. Alistaire was really giving me a hard time. Our door opened, seeing it in the corner of my eye. Alistaire laid back on the bed and remained silent.

"What happened? Why is Mommy crying?" Jason was here. He get Alistaire on the bed and carried her in his arms.

"I'm tired. Alistaire wasn't following me. She don't like to shower, to eat, to get dress. She just want to have her tantrums and eat those chocolate." I softly said. Jason place a finger on my chin and pulled up my head, to meet his look on me.

"Alistaire is that true?" Jason asked firmly. Alistaire nodded, rubbing her eyes.

"Mommy.. Mommy.." She's reaching for me but i ignore her. I swear i already lost my patience. I've been begging her for four hours. I know i need patience on this because she's my daughter but i'm getting upset now.

"Let's just bring her even if she's in her sleepwears. She can take a bath when we reach the beach." Jason stated. I grabbed my bag and Alistaire's travel bag. We're already dress since eight in the morning and all our bags was already there at my Mom's house.

"Come on. You carry that little girl, i just don't want to deal with her now." I snapped. I walked out of our room. I go directly to the kitchen and gave our maids some instructions and things that they need to do while we're not here. I waited for the two inside Jason's car.

"Alistaire can seat there?" Jason open the door on my side. I get Alistaire from him and put her on my lap. Jason sat on the driver seat then started to drive. I remained silent. Alistaire was touching my thigh but i'm ignoring her. She's really messy my gosh! She's wearing her pinky sleepwears and her mermaid slippers.

"Mommy.. milk." Alistaire tilted her head to see me. I reached for her bag on the back seat and quickly get her bottle. I put it on her small mouth as she leaned on my chest.

"Mom was excited to see you Alistaire." Jason pointed to Lucy that was standing on the front door as we entered the gate.

"You want to sleep?" She shook her head. I carefully jumped out of the car with Alistaire on my arms. I know what Alistaire wants. She's really acting like a baby now. I remember we watched a movie last night about a new born baby. That's why she wants to be treated like a baby.

"Hi sweetie." Lucy greeted. I kissed her on the cheek then she kiss Alistaire. She looked at me, asking me through her eyes. She pointed at Alistaire's clothes and i just shrugged. I entered our house and go straight in the living room. I kiss them all and sat on the couch, with Alistaire on my arms.

"What happened?" Anika pointed to Alistaire. I place Alistaire on the couch and rubbed her legs.

"Tantrums." I mumbled. Alistaire handed me her feeding bottle then sat on my lap, facing me.

"Do you want anything?" She shook her head then hugged me. She hold both of my cheeks then kiss me on my lips.

"Sorry Mommy." She whispered. I can taste the milk from her mouth because of her kiss.

"It's okay. Do you want to shower or later at the beach?" I put her hair in a bun and kissed her forehead. Mom and Lucy was looking at us while Anika and Steven was in their own world.

"Beach Mommy." She leaned on my chest then intwined her hands on me. I felt a hand from behind cupping my cheek.

"You hungry? You can grab some snack before we go." Jason rested his chin above my head as he continue to hold my cheek.

"It's okay baby. Just ask Eve to pack some food, i'll eat on the drive." I felt him nodded above my head. I pulled his arm to sit beside me which he didn't argue with. He walked and turn on the end of the couch then sat beside me.

"I love you." He softly whispered, draping his arm on my shoulder. Alistaire was still leaning on my chest, holding my hand.

"I love you more. Do i look good?" I pointed to my clothes. I was wearing a denim shorts and a white see through loose sleeveless top, under this was my red two piece suit.

"No." He smirked. Oh my gosh! Do i look really bad? I moved a little far from Jason. It's the first time that he said that to me that i wasn't good.

"You're not good because your the hottest, sexiest and prettiest girl in the world." He softly laughed and placed a kiss on my shoulder.

"I thought i look bad today." I frowned. He shook his head and placed a soft kiss on my lips.

"No words can describe you Steph." He hugged me and that cause Alistaire to lift her head from my chest.

"Mommy.. What is sexiest?" Jason and I both laughed as she asked that. We're not talking words that are unusual in front of her.

"It's the only way i can describe Mommy." Jason continue to laugh. We're still waiting for the maids to finish loading our bags on the car. It's just a three hours drive going to the beach.

"Mommy was the sexiest." Alistaire clapped her hands and that cause the others to look at us.

"Really? In front of that little girl?" Mom shook her head, smiling and they just all laugh.

"Mam. Everything was okay now." One of the maid said. Mom clapped her hands and shouted 'let's go.'. I carefully get up from the couch. Jason get Alistaire from me as i hold her travel bag. Everybody jumped inside the van. Mom, Lucy and Sandy in front. Us on the second row. And on the next will be Anika and Steven. Evelyn and one of our maids was seating beside the driver.

The car started to move and it's really a bright and sunny day. Summer was really on the track now. School will be in three weeks but i don't need to go there, same as Jason. We're both taking up home studies and fast track on our courses. It's good because we can watch our little girl while we are studying.

"Where is Alistaire's sunnies?" I asked Jason. Alistaire was on my right side and she was already sleeping, good thing that i brought her travelling pillow.

"On her bag. You pack her things Mommy." He smiled. He placed his hand on my thigh and rubbed it thoroughly. My gosh it's getting me weak. I get Alistaire's bag to look for her sunnies and good that it was there. I don't like her eyes to get hurt because of the sunrays when we reach the beach. I placed the bag back on the space and sit firmly.

"If you don't stop that, we'll be making out here." I whispered on his ear and licked his ear lightly. He got tensed. I mentally laughed about his action. He grabbed me by waist and pulled me closer to him.

"You want us to make out here? I can do it." He started to kiss me, from my neck down to my collarbone. We heard a soft cough and that made us stop.

"Believe me Jason Red, you're going to beg for my body tonight." I grinned. He put me on his chest and kiss the top of my head.

"It will be one of our best night later princess. I promise you that." I felt him smile above my head. I was wondering, every night was best for me because of him so what does he mean about, this will be one of our best night?

We stayed stick to each other while our daughter was making her dreams. It's just a three hours drive so, no need to sleep. The rest of the gang was quiet and seems like they are all irritated because of the weather. The air condition inside the car was not helping. I heard Anika groaned because of the hotness.

"Mom, are we near to the beach?" Steven shouted behind us.

"A little. Just chill guys." Mom softly laughed. Looking on their row, Lucy was busy talking with Sandy.

"Babe, i want to take off my clothes, i swear." I heard Anika told to Steven. Do they already have sex? We're turning seven months on our relationship and we had our first sex when we are on our first month. That's a little quick right? If i'm not mistaken Anika and Steven was on their fourth month. Anika sleep on Steven's room and Steven also sleep on hers, so maybe, just maybe, they already did that.

"We're near babe. Sorry." Steven sweetly said. My brother has a sweet side, infairness.

I felt Alistaire was moving so i lifted my head from Jason's chest and approached my little one.

"Mommy.." She rubbed her eyes, yawning. I quickly grabbed her body and put her to Jason's lap.

"How's our baby?" Jason hugged her. She already get the sleep that she wanted, as per looking at her.

"Daddy. Is Mommy pregnant again?" She stated and just a wink, the rest of them was looking at me.

"Steph, are you?" Mom asked, looking so concern to me. I shook my head and smiled at them.

"She's dreaming guys, she just had her nap. It's not true." I softly laughed. I felt Jason's hand roaming around my back. I want to swim, it's getting hot in here because of this man.

"Just tell us." Lucy laughed and that made me flinched in my position. Not with her laugh, but because of her son. His hand was inside my shorts now, on the upper side of my butt. Gosh!

"Steph, can i have Alistaire here?" Anika said behind us. I get Alistaire from Jason and give it to her. Alistaire was giggling since she sat their with Anika and Steven.

Jason get up from his seat and whisper something to Mom and Lucy. They just nodded and patted his back. What was that for? He sat back on his seat and placed his hand on my thigh and it's really near to my private part. Can he just wait? He rubbed my thigh and he hold the hem of my short.

"What are you doing?" I looked at him and seems like his still busy with it.

"I really want you baby." He whispered. He put my hair on the other side of my neck. He kissed me from my ear, to my neck to my collarbone. He turn my head to face him. He gave me a deep, passionate and amazing kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck and continue to return the kiss to him.

"Guys, continue that to your room. We're here now." Mom cheekily said. I felt the car's engine stopped. I quickly unwrapped my arms from his, i didn't notice that i'm on his lap. One by one we jumped out of the car. Nothing change here in our beach house. Still solemn and very nature friendly. Our maids put our bags inside the house. We stepped inside our house and still nothing change. This is where we had our first vacation. Jason and I already love this place since we got here before. We're staying on the same room that we stayed before.

We all decided to change our clothes first. I put Alistaire on a pink one piece. Jason already have his board short. I prepared the things that we need so that we will not go back here on our room so wet. We made our way to the beach where others are waiting.

"Alistaire. Come here honey." Mom waved at Alistaire. They already have their barbecue stand there, even the table was already prepared. They move so quick. Lucy and Mom was doing the barbecue thing. While Sandy and Alistaire was playing around them.

I started to remove my see through top and shorts, leaving me with my strapless red two piece suit. I stretched around and breathed the fresh air. I love the beach. I laid on my favorite beach chair and put my sunnies on. A little tanning can help.

"Baby, you forg-- Oh! Oh! Oh! You look so hot." Jason stood in front of me, holding the tanning spray. His with his wide eyes and mouth open. Acting like he didn't see me with this, he have seen me naked many times, my gosh.

"What?" I stole the tanning spray from him. I pulled him down to lay beside me. I got up slightly and started to put tanning spray on his body. As i finished, he did the same to me. We remained lying in the beach chair, wrapped on each others arms.

"Remember the day that we got here?" I softly asked

"Yea. That's our first vacation together and.." He looked at me then smiled.

"First photo!" We both screamed and laughed as we said that.

"Time goes fast right?" I looked over my shoulder, seeing my little girl, now making a sand castle with Sandy.

"Yes. We failed on our first baby, but i'm telling you, when you get your second pregnancy, we'll be much careful in everything." This is the first time that he open up the topic about my miscarriage. Almost two months had passed and we didn't talked about it.

"We will not fail anymore. No one can harm our baby again." I truthfully said. Calm waves of the water that keeps on flowing, it really serenade my ears.

"You will just stay on the house and your not going to do any chores. Even taking care of Alistaire." He chuckled. I tilted my head to looked at him. I turn his face to look at me.

"Alistaire was our daughter and i really can't get enough of her. Jason.. I didn't do chores when i got pregnant, it's our maids that took care of those. It's really the car on the accident, you know." I rubbed my nose to him to make me feel safe and more calm. The driver of that car was put into prison. Jason really file a case on him. We really use our connections for that case even if we're on the right place.

"Anyway princess, just keep in mind that we will do everything just to have a baby again. Okay?" He cupped my cheeks and peck a kiss on my lips. We're acting like there's no people around us. Alistaire was walking and she's with her beach toys.

"Look at your daughter." I pointed to Alistaire. She sat on the sand and play with herself, while pouting her lips.

"She really looks like you." Jason laughed and draped his arm on my shoulder.

"Pouty lips." Jason continue to laughed. I hit his chest and remained looking at my baby girl. Maybe she noticed that we're looking at her, cause she wave at us.

"I love you honey!" I shouted. She giggled as per looking at her.

"I love you too Mommy!" She shouted too with her little voice. She put down her toys and started to run toward us. Jason quickly grabbed her body and throw her up in the air then catch her soon.

"Let's swim now."