dear self | soukoku

17 | mixed signals

Dear Self,

Wow, I haven't written in while huh?

Anyways, I just got out of the hospital a couple of hours ago. My injury is slowly healing.

I haven't seen Chuuya yet. I don't think he knows I'm out. I guess I'll text him.

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To: slug
3:39 PM

hi! just got out :D

How are you?

i'm hurting a little but i'll be fine
you're worried about me? :)

I just don't know what else to say

i like it when you worried
it makes me feel happy :)

Well don't get used to it
What hell do you mean it makes you happy you creep

chuuya do you truly hate me?

Obviously

are you sure

Why are you even asking me it should be obvious

i guess i'm just getting mixed signals

?

well first you give me a hug at the hospital, then you ask how i'm feeling, and now you say you obviously hate me

That's just how I am jeez

well it's confusing
stop being so tsundere

Shut up

see? now you tell me to shut up
i just don't get you
anyways did anything happen

What do you mean

the people who attacked me
did they attack you

No

no fair :(

No fair?
You're the one who told me to be careful

yeah but i wanna don't be the only one hurt :/

Who's being confusing now

:/
chuuya can we please talk about what happened at disneyland

We don't have to

yes we do

Well I don't want to

chuuya please
we need to talk about it

No we don't
I have to get back to work

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I really wish he'd let me talk about it. I feel like I need to let it out. Tell him how I feel.

He'll probably hate me even more if I tell him.

Ugh, why do I feel like this?

I don't want this.

Well at least Chuuya's talking to me again.

Anyways I called the Agency to tell them what happened. It turns out they already knew. They said an old friend informed them.

Could that have been Chuuya? Nah, he'd never do that...

I just remembered. I haven't gave Chuuya a bouquet of flowers in a long time. He's probably getting suspicious. What do I do? I can barely even get up.

Ugh.

Getting shot sucks.

Sincerely,
Annoyed Dazai