Not What I Expected (Dinah/You)

Chapter 40

Y/N POV 

"YOUR DATING MY SISTER!?" I yell at Camila. "CHEECHEE GET YOUR GIRLFRIEND!" Camila says as she runs around the car. She stops on the other side of the hood of the car and I stand across from her. "Babe let her be." "Y/N leave her alone it's not a big deal." "It is when no one tells me or gives me a heads up." I say back. "I'm not going to hurt her. I know how much she means to you and I'm not going to hurt her." Camila says with pleading eyes.
"Damn right your not because your not going to date her." "WHAT!?" Camila and Ayana both yell.
"Y/N cut the shit your going to far. They both like each other why can't they be with each other?" I hear my mother ask. "Because my girlfriend's bandmate isn't going to date my sister. I won't let no little boy date her why would I let Camila date her?" I say never taking my eyes off the girl standing across from me. "Your just like dad. Trying to control who I date. I'm sorry that I can date who I want and I'm normal so I don't have to worry about being a freak. Just leave me and my love life alone."
      Never in my life did I think that I would be hearing something like this from my sister. I can feel the heat rushing on my face and I can feel my nails digging into my hands. I look away from Camila and send daggers toward Ayana. I see regret written all over her face but that not going to take back what she said to me. I just shake my head and walk away from everybody. "Mama." I look back and I see Chey running towards me. "Go to Mami Chey." She shakes her head and clings on to my legs. I sigh and pick her up walking away with her. I can hear everyone calling me back but I don't dare to look back. 
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"Chey baby don't go in too far." I watch as she plays in the water. I stand near her on the edge of the bank. I took her to a place where I used to go every time I went to my grandparents house to get away from everyone. The only people that know about this place are me, Mani, and my grandfather.
      Chey wanted to play in the water so I took off her dress so that she doesn't get it wet and I put a pull up under her underwear just in case she has an accident so I took the underwear off. We've been here for a couple of hours so I'm surprised Chey hasn't said she was hungry. I left my phone in the car before we went in the house so I don't know exactly what time it is. "Mama I'm hungry." She says as she walks up to me holding her stomach. "Well let's get you out of this pull up and get you some food okay." She nods her head and I take the pull up off throwing it in the dirt and slipping her underwear on and putting her dress back on and her shoes.
     I grab her hand and we walk back the way we came and I see a car pull up in front of us. "I thought you would come here. Get in the car." "Nah I'm good." I say as I continue to walk with Chey. She starts whining and I pick her up and put her on my hip. "You shouldn't be walking out at night with a two year old. It's dangerous." She right so I walk to the car and put Chey in the back seat buckling her in and closing the door and continue walking along the road.
"Stop being stubborn and get in the damn car. Everyone is worried about you. Especially Dinah. She's over there crying because nobody knows where you are. She tried calling your phone and she found it in the car. She doesn't deserve you going missing especially when it's with Cheylise. She loves the both of you so get your ass in the fucking car." Normani yells. "She doesn't love a freak like me. That's all I am. A fucking freak. Ayana and Michael are right. I'm a freak and I'm not normal. I don't know why I try to make it seem like my life is normal. Just take Chey and go to the house and tell her that I'm walking back." I say as I still walk and Normani is still driving beside me. "Fine but if your not at the house in a hour I'm coming back." She drives off and I walk down the road.
     She can't love me I'm a freak. Ayana is right. I'm not normal. As much as I try to make it seem like I am I'm not. I was never normal. I mean what girl is born with a damn dick. I'm not shit and I never will be just like what Michael said. my life was never normal. Whose parent ever tried to force them into liking things that their gender should? That's right mine. My dad tried to get me to play with dolls and play dress up with my sister.
"Y/N!" I hear a voice call out and I feel a body collide with mine almost taking me down and I hear sobs. I look down and see Dinah crying on my chest. "Don't ever do something so dumb like that again. Had me worried." "Dinah get off of me." "No." "Dinah get off of me." "I said no!" She screamed. "Dinah get the fuck off of me!" I yelled and she jumped and let go of me. "Don't sit here and act like you care when you don't love me. You can't love a freak like me." I say. "Your not a freak. And if you are then so what? I love you for you. I don't care what body part you have. None of that stuff matters to me." I scoff and turn my head. She grabs my face in her hands and turns her face towards me. "I don't care. I love you Y/N. I've always have and always will. So can you tell me that you love me back and not believe that stuff?" I look at her and kiss her. She kisses back and pulls away and hugs me. "I love you too Dinah Jane. I'm going to book a flight. I'm not staying here. Not in the same state. Not with both of them here so can you tell the girls to come on?" She nods her head and we both walk to the house and I wait by the car while she goes in the house.
"I'm sorry." I hear Ayana say. "I didn't mean to call you a freak. It's just... it's just you was acting just like him trying to tell me who I can and can't date. I like Camila. I really really do. What you pulled is the whole reason why I didn't tell you." I laugh bitterly. "You think just because you said sorry it's going to fix something? All my life I've been called a freak. It's bad enough I hear it from my own father but my sister? I'd never thought that you would stoop so low. I don't want to talk to. I don't want to hear from you. I don't even wanna see you so just go away and stay out of my life." I say as I get in the car.
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Dinah POV