Hiccup and Astrid

True emotions part 2

Hiccup came back from berk late that night, everyone was sleeping, so he went into his hut to find it clean.
He went to his bed, pulled out his diary to find a letter inside of it.
"Dear Hiccup
Please don't take this the wrong way but you're kind of an idiot.
Ignoring the blathering on of your first three paragraphs about my name and my lack of emotions and whatnot, I'll start by answering your actual question.
Why did I change my mind? Why was it so fast? I'm not some fossil like the elder and I'm not so bullheaded I can't see when something is amazing.
Yes, what you did was stupid, keeping a wild Night Fury from everyone's view and bonding with it. It was stupid and crazy and only YOU would do something so irresponsible. There was a likely chance you'd have gotten yourself eaten and what other choice did I have than to climb up on your dragon and fly with you? I was dangling hundreds of feet in the air at your mercy!
I was so mad at you.
But then it just kind of...melted away.
Because it wasn't the ride on Toothless that convinced me to change my mind about you. You turned to me that night in the cove and you told me a resounding 'yes'. You weren't the spineless fishbone I was used to hearing babble and stutter his way around the training ring, and had for all our childhood. In that one 'yes' I saw the hint of a leader you would be someday and my respect for you grew. The kiss was a thank you by the way because you showed me something new that night, a certain truth I hadn't known before.
And as for us standing there after they took Toothless, I guess I was trying to bait a resurge of that assuredness I had seen in you. You once again were a sad and pathetic kind of whelp, and you seemed like you were just going to let everything happen without trying to do anything about it and it annoyed me because I saw that you could do and be more from that night before.
It worked, you went off, took your crazy ideas and I put all my support behind you because you showed me that you were worth following, that maybe being the different one was something to be proud of, not ashamed of. And I'm still getting used to it, it's a lot to wrap my mind around, but as you said I'm good at keeping my emotions in and so it only would look 'simple' to you on the outside.
And for your information, if you were awake after the battle, your opinion would change on how 'well' I hide my emotions because I will tell you now, at hearing your Dad proclaim your status as living, my smile broke so wide it seemed to rip from cheek to cheek across my face.
And I might have to repeat that you can be a real idiot. Just because you never imagined there was another side to me that existed doesn't mean it's not there, which, in turn goes to show we really are a matched pair as I only thought you were a idiot.
So there you have it, Hiccup.
Stop being an idiot  tell what you really want.
Because I'm not going anywhere.
                                  Astrid.             "
Hiccup turned to look at toothless

"I'm doomed, bud"
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Done.
For now.