Why did god take you away from me. Justin Bieber & Kendall Jenner

29.

Brittany's Pov~~*

I groaned and moaned as i rolled about the bed, as the sun seeped through the blinds, i sighed great i woke up to another day of horror, having to live through my thoughts, i checked the time on my phone which was underneath the pillow it was almost midday, great, might as well just fall back asleep, i was then distracted by a sudden knock on the door.

"Brittany Come on out please, you need to come out sometime, you can't stay in there forever, come on Brittany open up". I heard Justin say as he continued to knock on the door, if he wants to come in, then he can come in, but don't expect me to just get up and go on like nothing happened
"Watch Me". I said shouting, placing the pillow over my head to block out his voice but it didn't work, could still hear it, i then heard the door creak open, and the bed sink down a little, uggh please i don't need this right now.
"Come on Brittany isn't this enough already, you have been trapped up in this room for like 3 to 4 days now, without anything to eat, and without any fresh air, i miss you, come on, i know its hard, but your not helping yourself by just staying in here all day, i'm gonna be here for you, always and you know that, if you would just let me help you, open up to me, then we can work through it together". He said touching my arm, i flinched a little at his touch, i don't want anyone touching me, haven't i been touched up enough by Zack, i feel so discusting right now, i just want to jump out that bedroom window and hopefully split my head when i land at the bottom.
"And what is there to work
through justin, what is there, nothing, nothing at all, because if we just talk about it then it will just make things worse, and count yourself lucky today that your getting a conversation out of me". I said throwing the pillow of the bed, and folding my arms pissed, i turned away from him so he couldn't see me cry, thats all i've done is cry, cry all day and all night, and i thought it would help crying you know, getting it out, but it doesn't it just makes you realise how fucked up you're life is, and how worthless you are to be honest
"Babe listen to me if we don't talk about these things, then you'll never get your emotions out, a time like this you need to have the people around you that care for you and i do, and you may not believe that, but i really do Brittany, and if you don't want help then the people around are just gonna not even try and help you no more because you don't give us the time of day, but you need to open up to me, because i don't like seeing you like this, it brakes my heart everytime to see you cry, i'm here to make you happy, and see you smile, and i just don't want you to be unhappy for the rest of your life, and yes what happened to you was a really bad thing, and the person that did this to you deserves to fucking die, he doesn't deserve to live, you deserve to live a life of happieness, but it will never happen if you don't do something about it, don't push me away please, do you understand how that makes me feel, that makes me feel like i'm a piece of shit to you".
He said with hurt in his voice, i realise pushing him away makes him feel like that, and i don't mean for him to feel like that, but sometimes i just wish he would lay off a little you know give me some free space and not be in my face all the time.

Brittany: AND WHAT DO YOU EXPECT ME TO DO JUSTIN, JUST FUCKING FORGET ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED, THATS WHAT YOUR TRYING TO SAY ISN'T IT, YES BECAUSE YOU JUST WANT ME TO GET UP AND JUST CARRY ON AND ACT LIKE EVERYTHING IS HAPPY AND LOVELY AGAIN, DON'T YOU WELL IT ISN'T

I Broke down and cried into the bed sheets, i howled and the tears were coming out me like niagara falls.

Justin: babe i'm sorry, come here, just come okay, don't be scared

He picked me up, and pulled me into his arms, i had my head rested into his chest, i was shaking, but justin wouldn't hurt me, he storked my arm, while rocking me in his strong, warm arms, singing in my ear, his singing always comforts me, hes got such an angel like voice that soothes me, i couldn't ask for such a wonderful human being in my life.