Why did god take you away from me. Justin Bieber & Kendall Jenner

97.

BRITTANY'S POV

I just watched as the taxi drove out of sight and sat there on the door step as the rain started coming down on me soaking me, I just really didn't care. I half expected for the taxi to just come back and Justin to just run at me and tell me that he won't go and that he made a big mistake, but I know that's not going to happen those kind of things only happen in the movies and this is no movie this is reality, reality stinks, sometimes i want my life to be just like what it is in the movies but then I'm just being one of those girls that overate love because of what I see in films.

Managing to pull myself up from the step, I shivered from the cold rain. I tried to hold myself together but I just couldn't, flashbacks of the goodbye we just had kept replaying back in my head over and over again, making me choke up with more tears and I could feel that pain in my heart, I should have known this sort of thing was going to happen should have seen the warning signs, I feel as if it's my fault he left, I'll always blame myself and there is nothing i can do to fix it now that he is gone and i'll never see him again.

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Once I got back home I took my shoes off my feet as my feet were soaking and muddy. I sat them down on the door mat, shaking the rain out of my hair.

"Brittany what happened to you". Sam appeared from the kitchen with a kitchen towel in her hands, she looked shocked to say at the least with my scary panda eyes and soaked clothes.

"Nothing it doesn't matter Sam I just want to go upstairs that's all".

"Have you been crying? The girls told me you were out but didn't tell me were you went".

"Well lets just leave it that way shall we, everyone just wants to leave me, no one wants me, I'm never gonna be good enough for anybody so they just leave me".

"What are you talking about Brittany whats got you into this mess".

I couldn't hold it in any longer I collapsed onto the bottom stair and burst out into tears head in my hands

"Brittany sweetheart what ever is the matter? Why are you like this". She sat down next to me, putting her arm around me I rested my head on her shoulder as i sobbed like an idiot

"Tell me what's wrong Brittany? I don't like it when any of you's are upset please tell me what's wrong".

"I-its J-justin h-he l-left".

"What do you mean he left honey?".

"H-he l-left, h-he's going b-back to C-Canada and he's n-never c-coming back, that's where I was a-at his h-house s-saying g-goodbye, IT'S ALL MY FAULT".

"Oh sweetheart come here, its alright, you'll get through it does that mean you's are over?".

"YES!! i l-love h-him i want to die right now".

"Don't say that Brittany, and don't say its your fault because it's not your fault, these things happen and they can't be helped, I know how much you love that boy, and I know this is hard for right now".

"I'm never gonna be happy again, he made me so happy he saved me and now i have nothing to live for".

"Stop saying stuff like that, okay i know your in love with him but your seventeen Brittany how could you possibly know that you will never be happy again".

"Because there is no other boy out there who could make me as happy as Justin does, no one understands I have had ENOUGH!!!". I snapped I pushed Sam off and ran upstairs wiping away the tears that were falling

"Brittany are you okay". Ignored Ashley and ran straight into my room, locking the door behind me, stripping myself of my clothes, ripping the shirt off me in frustration and anger as salty water continued to run down my face. Knocking on the door came but ignored it as I stepped through to the bathroom switching on the shower and climbed inside. I began to scrub and scrub at my skin, harder and harder till my skin bled, I screamed banging my fists off the side of the wall, not caring if it was painful to do so, why do people always leave me? Why am I never going to be good enough for anybody?.