Why did god take you away from me. Justin Bieber & Kendall Jenner

93.

JUSTIN'S POV

I went back into the school once she left, I was cold and I was wet, my eyes stung with tears and my mind was filled with confusion. What just happened there? I'm not so sure. What did she mean by that she's done what does that even mean? I hope it doesn't mean that we are over I pray to god that it doesn't mean that. I can't have her leave me I just can't because she's everything, she's special and I just love her so much, right now I don't even know if we're still together or broken up, lost in confusion like an illusion.

I went into the boys bathroom and looked at my reflection in the mirror my puffy, red water filled eyes my tear stained cheeks. I turned on the cold water tap and threw some water onto my face to refresh myself. Once that was done i turned the tap back off and looked back at my reflection, what am i going to do? Well I'm going to have to try and sort this whole thing out with Brittany, I'm afraid that I might lose her and I can't let that happen, some guys don't care about losing their girl they simply don't do anything about it, but me I'm not like that i couldn't be like that. Me I'm scared everyday when i wake up that something bad is going to happen her and I'm going to lose her forever, when I'm with her I have to hold her close just to be sure that she's there that she's mine and that she ain't going anywhere. And when I'm not with her my heart hurts, I don't want to seem like a clingy type of boyfriend but to me showering her with love is important to me because she deserves all the love and affection in the world. So i actually care about losing her, and i'm not going to let that happen. Once i was done I made my way out into the emptiness of the deserted school hallway getting the chills. I can't be fucked going to my next class anyway it's not like I need to go anyway when I'll be graduating soon enough.
I think I need to go home, have a rest time to think about things it's the weekend anyway so i have a few days to come to terms with everything and think of what to do to save our relationship when it's basically just falling to pieces.

~~

"Your home early Justin".

"Yeah mom i didn't feel to good so i decided to just come home and have some rest to see if I'll feel any better".

"Aww my poor boy, do you need me to get you anything?".

"No thanks I'll be fine, just need some rest that's all".

"Okay sweetheart, just call me if you need anything".

"Don't worry i will". I dumped my bag at the bottom stair, making my way upstairs to my room. I let my body sink into the bed getting used to its comfort and warmth. The only noise to be heard in the room was the sound of the rain hitting the window there is just something about that, that makes it so relaxing. I pulled out my iPhone from my pocket, unlocking it typing in my passcode. I went into old messages to Brittany and began to type out a message

"I love you xx". I clicked on send, once it was sent I locked my phone again and sat it to the side. I know she'll not respond to the message she'll take one look at it and roll her eyes in disgust but I just had to say it, she just has to realise that I love her and that's not going to change, no one is going to ruin us or anything we have I'll make sure that doesn't happen together we're unbreakable.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••

BRITTANY'S POV

"Why are you home so early". Sam asked as soon as I got in the door soaking wet

"Didn't feel too good". I dumped my bag down hanging up my soaked jacket I need to change

"Your all wet, did you walk all the way home in that weather".

"Yes i did no biggie".

"Have you been crying? Why have you been crying?".

"What's with all the questions Sam?".

"Sorry I just want to make sure that your alright that's all".

"Well I'm fine okay, just feel a little queazy i think it's something i ate".

"Well you can go upstairs and have a lie down, oh and this came for you through the mail today from the college". She handed me the white envelope, this must be the letter to tell me if I've been accepted or not, my hands trembled and my heart quickened. I made a quick dash upstairs to my room where i took a seat on my soft bed and began to open the letter giving myself a paper cut in the process.  I'm scared I'm really scared this college that I want to get into is a dream college and one of the best colleges in the whole of California I just hope I have done enough to get in, this is my future we're talking about here I'm holding it in my hands. I just want to make my mom proud of me.

As my eyes scanned across the words on the letter I took it all in, I can't believe it, I really can't believe it I got in. A tear escaped my eye but it was a happy tear I wiped it away as a smile spread across my face this is the best news I've heard all day, maybe today wasn't the best considering what happened with Justin but this has made my day a lot better and it's made me feel a lot better also, hopefully my mom is looking down on me smiling and proud.

I folded back the sheet of paper and placed it back inside the envelope and sealed it over. I sat it down on my dresser getting a vibration from my phone that was pushed inside my bra I took it out noticing it was a message from Justin

"I love you xxx". It red, a single tear fell from my right eye and splashed down onto the screen of my phone but that wasn't a happy tear that was a sad tear. Why do I have to be such a bitch and ruin everything I'm glad that I didn't break up with him I almost did but I am determined to keep this promise of never leaving him I have the ring to prove it after all I don't break promises. I can't help it if I'm one of those girls that gets jealous when she sees her boyfriend out with some other girl, it didn't look right to me and I had every right to be concerned that's only because I care about losing him, and when he said that he was out with her last weekend because they were discussing things that Justin could do to make me feel special well I wasn't sure if I believed him or not, half of me did which made guilt run through me and then the other half didn't because I was thinking is he just saying that to cover up his lies ugh I don't know I need time to think.i'm not even sure if we will makeup after this, maybe we won't maybe we won't have to say that we're over we'll just know without having to communicate, this time i should be the one to run to him, not him run to me like he always does its maybe it's my time to fix this because if two people want to stay in love it involves a lot of work, Justin is perfect to me but I see an imperfect person inside and he sees the same in me, our relationship isn't perfect no matter how many times people say that we are because we're not no relationship is perfect but you know what's real? Our love is real that's whats real its the realist thing out there it's strong and can fight against anything that comes its way I'm pretty sure that he's the one even if he's my first love but I have never been so sure of something in my entire life, you know since I was a little girl I always dreamed about meeting my prince charming, I actually thought he used to exist out there in the real world but then I grew up and realised that all that stuff wasn't real it was just some fantasy I had, but then Justin walked into my life and he swept me off my feet and took my breath away and it was like every time I was around him I didn't want to be with anybody else, and then we fell for each other and a beautiful thing blossomed and then that's when i said to myself he's my prince charming, and then I started to believe that I was going to get my fairytale ending now I'm not so sure anymore stuff like that doesn't exist it isn't real, it's bullshit, this is reality not some stupid fairytale I live in its nothing like that it's something much darker.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••

JUSTIN'S POV

"Justin can I talk to you for a second please".

"Yeah sure mom". I put the game controller down on my bed and made a dash downstairs to the living room

"So mom what's up?".

"Sit down Justin". I took a seat down onto the sofa, my mom looked worried, like she had something bad to tell me, and that scared me and made my heart race a little

"What is It mom".

"This is harder than I thought".

"What is? Mom your scaring me a little just tell me whatever it is I'm sure I can handle".

"Okay Justin we might have to move back to Canada".

Wait!!, what??