Why did god take you away from me. Justin Bieber & Kendall Jenner

95.

BRITTANY'S POV

For the past two days I have been off school because I have had this bug, and I'm kinda glad that I'm ill at the moment because I don't have to face Justin. That day didn't end well at all, and I have never cried so much in my life, i haven't talked to any of the girls about what happened because I have locked myself in here for the past couple days trying to deal with everything. I'm not even sure if Justin and I are over because I didn't exactly say the words, all I did was take the promise ring off my finger and throw it at him, he can't leave, he can't leave me here I might never ever see him again I love him, he's the love of my life, he can't just leave like that, it's Friday tomorrow, tomorrow he'll decide whenever to leave or not i hope he chooses to stay but considering what I said to him he might leave. I regret telling him to just leave and that I don't care I would take back what I said in an instant. Each time he reaches out there is no reply, I just want him to hold me right now and tell me everything's going to be alright but I know it's not, I don't want us to end like this.

Pulling myself out of bed a wave of dizziness coming over me, my legs shaking and wobbling. I made my bed making it neat, nearly tripping over the basin that was beside my bed, the back of my throat felt dry as did my lips, that's what this kind of illness does to you. I shuffled my way over the bathroom, jumping at how cold the floor was on my bare feet. I gasped at my reflection in the mirror I looked like a zombie, heavy eyes, traces of mascara still left on my skin from the day before. I ran a hand through my greasy hair, could my day get any worse, firstly it's brilliant and then all of a sudden it's crap and shit and I don't know how much i can handle. 

Jumping into a shower letting the warm beads hit my body, getting rid of the dirt and grime that's built up in the last couple of days. I soaked my hair, kneading some summer fruits shampoo into my hair making sure not to miss a spot, I just love coming in a shower because i think it's the perfect place to just think about life and think about what's going to happen. I only want Justin and I to be happy together, you know the feelings I get around him the heart palpitations, the sweaty palms and the butterflies I get whenever he holds my hand, touches me and kisses me the feeling of love i love those feelings, I don't want them to go away I don't know what to do, if he chooses to go then I have to respect that choice I'll have to deal with it, face it he's leaving and I'm never going to see him again.

After i was finished rinsing my hair out with shampoo and conditioner, I switched the shower off, grabbing a white crisp towel off the towel rail wrapping it around my body. I shivered at the slight coldness in the room. I climbed out of the tub placing my feet onto the towel that was laying sprawled out on the floor. I made my way back through to my room opening up the closet and taking this out and putting it on.

http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?.svc=twitter&id=81950665

I brushed through my wet hair, leaving it hang down loose to air dry. And that's when the sudden moments of sadness hut me, the sudden memories of all the beautiful times i have had with Justin sprang to mind and I just collapsed to the floor and cried.

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"Brittany can I please talk to you". I heard Ashley's voice outside the door her tone sounded quite firm and serious I don't have the time to talk to anybody when I want to keep myself to myself

"Not now Ash I want to be left a lone".

"You have said that for the past two days, and I need to talk to you".

"Why?".

"Because Justin told us what happened with you and him the other day".

"Oh just great anybody else he fucking told? The bird in the tree, the cows in the field, I have had it up to here with him telling everybody about our problems and me always having to add onto it".