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by Bitxhs

by Bitxhs

JUSTIN'S POV

They've been in there for hours with her and I just want to know what's going on. You'll never understand how broken I was when I seen her laying at the bottom of those stairs in a pile of blood around her, it didn't look good, she looked lifeless, almost dead. Don't you understand I can't lose her, if I lose her well I'll have nothing else to live for, does god just want to ruin things from me? Take one girl away from me one minute and then when I fall in love again he tries and attempts to do it to me again. I'm crossing my fingers that everything's going to be alright. People don't realise how baldy falling down stairs can do to a person, people have died falling down them, you hear about it all the time, and not many survive such a thing, and I just hope she does, but if I lose her I lose everything and that's not something I am willing to take, she's my everything, my whole world, I'm truly unconditionally in love with this girl yes we have young love with complications but its real and it's true love and nothing compares to it. I learn and grow more about love everyday, and when I do I love her more and more, my love builds for her everyday, it gets stronger day by day I've been with this girl for a whole entire year, and I know for sure that she is the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with, I may be eighteen, and young and stupid and clueless about life and its battles but i do know that she is the one person I want to experience everything with marriage, kids might seem pretty far fetched and out there but I know what I want and I think when these moments of impact happen to you, your mind just becomes more open to these things.

Currently sitting here sobbing with my head in my hands waiting for anything, anyone to come and tell me that she is going to be okay, and not tell me that she didn't make it, because If I were to hear those four words I think I would just jump off the roof of this building

"Sweetheart everything's gonna be alright, she is gonna be fine come on honey be strong for Brittany".

"NO MOM, DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND I KNOW THAT SHE IS NOT GOING TO BE OKAY HOW COULD YOU POSSIBLY KNOW THAT, YOU WEREN'T THE ONE THAT CAME HOME AND SEEN HER LAYING IN A POOL OF HER OWN BLOOD JUST LIFELESS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE STAIRS".

"Maybe I didn't honey but I do know that she is a fighter and she is going to make it through this, do you think Brittany would leave this earth and just leave you behind i don't think so she will pull through trust me it might be hard at the moment but we just have to cross our fingers that everything's going to be okay". She slung her arm around me and I just dramatically dropped into her arms and sobbed, crying all the tears that I could, it was like when I was five and I fell from that tree and my mom held me while I cried but this time it's a more serious and different circumstance.

"Screw this I'm going for a walk". I said getting up from my moms lap, drying and blinking away the tears that were forming and building

"Honey where are you going?".

"A walk don't wait up on me". I stormed off, out off the ward, and down to the bottom floor where I immediately just went straight outside into the pouring rain that was coming down really fast and hard. I pulled my hood up over my head, hands in my pockets as I put my head down and cried, no one would know and no one would see I didn't even know where I was walking to, all I knew was that I didn't want to go back in there, hospitals just aren't nice places to be in, they don't give a good feel off of you, they just give you that negative feel that something really bad is going to happen. I just need to know is she going to be okay?, I just want to hold her in my arms, kiss her, hold her little hand be there for her but I can't when she is laying up there and no ones telling me anything I'm starting to think the worst.

After spending almost half an hour out in the freezing cold rain I made my way back inside, getting a few stares from people because I was soaking from the rain and shivering like crazy but I didn't care I just had to get out to clear my head. My eyes stung so much because of all the crying I have been doing, my hair was all over the place, but that's the least of my worries right now. I took the stairs back up to the floor I was once on, and right back onto the ward where my mom was talking to a doctor, they both snapped their heads up, I heard my mom thanking the doctor and then he wondered off back into the room

"Hey honey". She said as I sat back down and looked at her. I knew she was talking to that doctor about Brittany and I need to find out what the whole thing was about before i lose my mind it better be some good news

"Mom what was that all about?, what was that doctor saying how is she?".

"Honey your soaking wet, why did you go outside for half an hour". She was trying to change the subject there is definitely something she doesn't want me to hear and that scares me

"Mom, STOP trying to change the subject because I clearly well know that you are hiding something from me, If that doctor was talking to you about Brittany I think I deserve to know the truth, don't you, a mean come on mom at least spare me some dignity, I had to get away for half an hour to clear my head and I was pretty sure myself that I wasn't going to even come back inside, NOW TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?". I don't know, but all this anger was built up inside of me, I guess I just wanted answers but no one is giving them to me

"Okay look sweetheart the doctor came out and told me that she suffered from a serious concussion, has some brain damage from the hard force when she hut her head off the floor from falling downstairs and a broken arm and leg, but she's had to be put on life support".

"What do you mean life support?, she's not dead she's going to be fine". I cried

"Honey I'm sorry but they're not sure if she's going to make it.".