Enlighten Me

E.M. 12 **Working Progress**

Amari POV

"Mommy no I don't wanna do this" I begged her as I tried to pry her hand off my wrist. She sucked her teeth pushing me away from her. I rubbed my wrist as I looked at her. She was sitting down on the floor with her back against the wall and her head in her hands. She was shaking uncontrollably and I heard sniffling.

I slowly approached her hesitantly extending my hand out to touch her. Her head snapped up making me jump back. "If you loved your mama you would do this for me" she cried shaking her head and scratching at her flesh. I shook my head as tears formed in my eyes.

She nodded before getting up slowly and wiping her face with her sleeve. "Okay. If you won't I know someone who will. Selfish only think about your own happiness. After I gave you everything this how you repay me!" she yelled startling me as tears streamed from my eyes.

"If you won't help your own mother I know who will." she said making my eyes widen. I ran after her as she went over to the door. "Mama stop it! That's your baby girl." I begged as I grabbed her risk making her head snap in my direction. She scoffed before pushing me aggressively on the floor.

"Get away from me you ungrateful and sorry excuse for a daughter. I should've gave you away when I had the chance knewing you'd be nothing but a disappointment." she said with so much hate in each word. Each one felt like it stabbed me on the heart.

"Ma don-" I said trying to grab her leg but ended up getting kicked in the head. I fell into unconsciousness hearing the faint screams and cries from my sister. "Mari help! Please! Please! Why aren't you helping me!" she screamed

I jumped up inhaling sharply trying to catch my breath. My heart was pounding hard against my chest. My chest heaved up and down as I tried to steady my breathing. I was sweating like crazy. I yanked open my draw to my nightstand and pulled out my inhaler.

I shook it and pumped it in my mouth inhaling deeply. I closed my eyes as I took the second pump counting backwards from ten as I breathed into my nose out through my mouth. Good girl Amari I coached myself. I clearned my throat before looking over at my clock |3:48am| .

I knew that I was definitely not going back to sleep now. I ran my fingers through my hair before grabbing my phone off the nightstand. I looked through my contacts finally finding the person and clicked the phone icon. I bit the corner of my lip anxiously listening to the dialtone waiting.

After the third ring I got ready to hang up but then a voice cleared their throat. "Amari LaShay Jackson what the fuck its like.....fucking 3 in the morning." he said in his deep groggy voice. I sighed playing with the ends of my hair. "I know..." I mumbled before hearing him sigh before there was shuffling in the background.

"Whats the matter?" he asked sounding a little more awake. "I can't sleep." I said before it went quiet. "So you called me out of my sleep because you can't sleep?" he asked me and rolled my eyes. "Yes... Can you come over?" I asked whining a little and poking out my bottom lip as if he could see me.

I heard a loud groan of frustration from his end of the found. I smirked knowing that he was thinking about coming. "You better be glad I love you and that Im in this neighborhood at my grandma house." he said with a whole lot of noise. I smiled "love you babe." I said in a baby voice as I batted my eyes. "Right. Be there in 10 minutes keep your window unlocked." he mumbled before hanging up I couldn't wipe this grin on my face.

I got out of bed and walked over to unlock and open my window. I then went to change out of my sweaty shirt. I just settled on a sports bra and put on my pajama shorts. As I was brushing my teeth in my bathroom I heard my window creek open. I smiled as I spit out my toothpaste before rinsing out my mouth.