Teach me how to dougie

Sequel chapter 9

Dougies pov

I stood facing the small crowd that stood around Darcy's coffin. The flimsy piece of paper rattled in my hands as I steadied my breathing ready to make my speech.

"Darcy was my best friend since before I can remember, but you see when I became a teenager something changed. When I was a teenager I began to feel something, I felt the need to protect her but not as a little sister or a best friend, but as my whole world. I never told Darcy how I felt while we were best friends, I mean the thought was so daunting , the fact that she could have just laughed in my face and I would have lost my best friend. Through high school she had this one boyfriend that she went back to time and time again, he was that one person that she was hooked on, we all had one, well she was mine. You see, he never treated her the way she deserved. Over and over she told me how much she loved him and over and over I felt my heart break. until one day I just could take it anymore. I could sit and watch her get hurt again, I couldn't sit back and listen to her love someone when I loved her so myself. Mcfly was beginning to really take off, so I left, no goodbye, nothing. 5 years I left her for. I thought I was never going to see her again. but I did and we fell in love with each other, and time and time again I have hurt her and she kept coming back to me. I turned into the boy she loved in high school. you see what I'm trying to say is that, we all have that one person who we truly love, she was that person to me, and she told me I was hers. No matter what happens that person is your life line and without them you can't function properly. I can't function properly anymore. I lost her so many times before, but now, I've lost her forever. My darcy, shes gone, she died in my arms, even after I hurt her so many times, she spent her last few breaths telling me she loved me, I'll never forget that." I paused trying to suck back in my tears, but there was now point, I was completely broken and everyone could see it.

"Doug, you don't have to do this, con body would blame you." harry voice was full of worry and reassurance but I knew I had to do this, I wouldn't be able to carry on if I didn't.

"Oh, god, I wanted to be strong for the twins, my beautiful children but I'm going to be honest. I can't be strong and not cry, because my wife's dead, and I know I can never find anyone like her. so what was I saying, so. anyway, you may think I'm rambling on, but what I'm trying to say is that, we all have that one person, and if you haven't already told them, tell them, please. before it's too late. Me and Darcy have two beautiful children, Alfie and Alicia, and no matter what I am going to make sure they know who she is when the grow up, because they need to know how special and beautiful and kind their mum was. Finally, I made one promise to Darcy before she died, and well if I'm honest I wish I hadn't, because I promised that I would fine someone else, that I would be happy, but how can I be happy if the one person who made me truly happy, the only person, is gone. I love you so much Darcy, I hope your looking down and laughing at what a baby I'm being because I just want you to be happy, that's all I ever wanted, and now I understand why you want the same for me, so thank you, thank you for being my wife, for loving my faults and most of all, for giving me our two beautiful children, the two people I will cherish and nurture with my love I have for you."

I stepped down of the post and stood nearer to the coffin. I knelt down and laid my hand on her coffin. my forehead slowly followed as I quietly told her I loved her, wishing that this wasn't happening and that maybe, just maybe I could be dreaming, but I knew, like all the other times I had wished this, that this was now my harsh reality, I was stuck in this tiresome world whilst the love of my life looked down on me and our children.

I felt a hand on my shoulder before a body pressed against my arm, my hard rose to see my two children. I gave a weak smile, a smile full of pain and tiredness.

I couldn't do this anymore. I know I'm going to let them down, just like I let down Darcy and look where that ended. I am nothing but bad news for them, I was never made to be a family man, they barely know who I am, they're better of without me.

I need to be with darcy.

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Authors note

Kind of a cliff hanger I guess, sort of, maybe not.

It's a bit short but there really wasn't much more I wanted in this chapter.

Thanks for reading, let me know of there's anything you want to happen, anything you honestly don't want to happen, maybe?

Just let me know what you thing in general, aha thanks for reading mans a lot xxxx