Teach me how to dougie

Chapter 27

Dougie's pov

"Who wants ice cream!!" The twins stared back at me obviously giggling. I put small scoops into each bowl and filled large bowls for me and the lads.

Today we were having a day of writing songs, all the boys except James, who had claimed to be helping a friend prepare for an interview but wouldn't give us any details.

I was finally getting the knack of juggling daddy hood and band member. Since me and Darcy officially called it quits I had struggled to come to terms with being on my own, I had gotten so used to Darcy's company. The twins were now 11 months, nearly one. I can't get over how quick it's gone, they've got their own little personalities, they're running around and forming little words that actually make sense. I didn't realise how much I had been missing out on, how much they'd grown up and I hadn't even been there. Now I have my priorities straight and can see clearly what an amazing experience parenthood is.

"Alicia, come here babe, you got ice cream round your mush." Danny's thick accent was drowning in laughter standing out from all the lads, I watched as she ran into his arms and I could see that, not only have they changed my life but they've changed our whole band. I was the first to have band babies, we've all grown up and matured so much since they were born and now the twins couldn't live without all their uncles and aunties and vice versa.

"Daddy, park pwease. Swings and u swide." Alfie's little hands hooked around my neck his little face infront of mine. I grinned proudly at my little man before picking him up and calling for a park break.

"Come on, let's get your willies and rain mac. mummy wouldn't be to happy if you caught a cold the pair of you, would she?"

"Mummy!!"

Their faces lit up and my insides swelling hoping they have the same reaction when I'm mentioned.

"So mate, why don't you give Ellie a call,she might as well come and hang out she could even give us some tips with the writing, and she could keep and eye on the twins for you."

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Authors note.

Heyy, so I kinda broke my promise and didn't write anything whilst away and even worse I've been back a few days and am only just writing this, I'm sorry I'm so crap i don't have an excuse if I'm honest, or atleast the ones I have are just crap.

I got my results this week for my year 10 exams, for any of you that don't know, I got to school in wales so we do them modularly, which means we do half in year 10 and they rest in year 11. I am kind of disappointed, I probably shouldn't be because I got a* in welsh, a in sciences and psychology and English and b's and c's in the rest.

I also had an another allergic reaction whilst away and now I've been band from eating pizza for the past two weeks, which for me is like a life time.

I go back to school on Thursday which sucks, I really don't want to see everyone, I've had a retainer out in on my bottom teeth and there attached it to my braces in the top with rubber bands so I can barely open my mouth and can't take it out unless I'm eating, which also royally sucks. I also have to see the lad I was speaking to for a while for the first time in like 3 weeks because were on a "break" whatever that means.

Sorry to pour my heart out to you but, I feel like this is the easiest place, but lately I've been feeling really insecure about my weight, I just feel really under confident in anything I wear and barely even want to leave the house. I doesn't help that my skin hates me lately and is just breaking out in spots left right and centre. I really am kind of petrified about going back to school because I look like shit.

I kind of want to start a question. Of the week because for you lovelies who read this I want to know about you.

So this week the question is....

How body confident are you?